“Keep smiling even it hurts you a lot.”
What if I can't smile--- can't fake my smile anymore? Do I need to keep my smile again?
What if I want them to know that I'm hurt? Do I need to keep my smile again just to show them How I am hurt? Is that it?
Why do I need to keep my smile despite all of this? To show them how strong I am? No, I don't want to because I. am. not. strong at all.
I also need a comfort zone.
What if I want them to comfort me? Do I need to keep my smile again while saying to them that I am hurt? ---
Oh wait---- they won't comfort me at all, no one dares to give time on me, no one wants to waste their time just for me, no one wants me to be okay, no one wants to be with me. Who am I to demand, right? I'm just a nobody, a mess, a loser.
