Buti naman gising ka na, Sai-pot. Pinakaba mo ako…” umupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga ko, nagtaka ako kasi nandito si Yue sa kwarto ko.
”Ha? Pinakaba? Bakit? Atsaka anong gingawa mo dito Yue?”
”Tumawag ako sayo tapos bigla na lang akong nakarinig ng malakas na lagabag kaya agad akong pumunta dito kasi naisip kong baka inaatake ka.” nabigla ako sa sinabi ni Yue.
”Ha? Teka… alam mo?”
”Oo alam ko, narinig ko.. alam ko ang tungkol sa sakit mo..”
Niyakap ko bigla si Yue, ”Please, wag mong sasabihin kahit kanino Yue. Ikaw lang nakakaalam bukod kina mama. Please, wag mong sasabihin kahit kanino.”
”Bakit ayaw mo ipasabi?”
”Gust ko sanang sabihin kaso what would be the point of it? I’ll just make them worry and I don’t want anyone worrying for me, I want my life to stay normal..”
”eh pano si Cedric?” napabitaw ako sa pagkakayakap ko kay Yue.
”Anong pano si Cedric?”
”Diba kayo na ulit?”
”ha? Ano? Di kita magets yue?”
”Nung sa labas ng hospital eh nakasalubong ko si Cedric, tinatanong kita sa kanya at ang sabi nya eh nag-out ka na daw sa hospital and then he told me everything. Sabi nya rin sakin na nasa kwarto ka ni Kyla and you’re there to explain everything kasi narinig nya daw ang usapan nyo ni Cedric kaya hindi na ako nagtuloy ng hospital coz I want the 2 of you to have enough time to talk about things. Kaya nga tumawag ako sayo para malaman ang nangyari..”
Napatingin lang ako nun kay Yue… sasabihin ko bas a kanya ang totoo?
”Sairyl… I know that look, tell me the truth Sai, anong nangyari? I know it’s not good news, ganan din ang tinging ipinukol mo sakin when we were in highschool nung may nang-aaway sayong mga babae at binalak mo pang magsinungaling. Kilala kita Sai, alam ko may hindi magandang nangyari.”
Napaiyak akong parang bata, yung kamay ko pinupunas ko sa ayw na tumigil na luha sa mata ko. Alam mo kasi yung feeling na parang pinagsasabihan ka ng kuya mo at eto na nga nagsumbong na ako sa kuya ko…
”Kasi Yue! May sakit sya! Hindi ko kayang ipagdamot si Cedric sa kanya!”
”Eh ano kung may sakit sya? Ikaw din naman ah!”
”But she’s dying!” medyo nabigla sya sa sinabi ko since hindi nya rin alam ang tungkol dun, kahit ako nabigla nung sabihin sakin ni Kyla yun. Wala naman kasi syang sinasabi sakin tungkol sa sakit nyang yun dati. Biglaan na lang talaga ang lahat.
”And you are too!”
”Ok lang yun. I can’t be that selfish Yue!”
”Selfish? That’s not being selfish Sairyl! Nagpapakamartyr ka masyado!”
”Eh kesa naman masaya nga ako with Cedric tapos ang sarili kong bestfriend magdudusa!”
”But you’ve been hurt a lot already Sai, you deserve to be happy.”
”Ayos na ‘to Yue… I’ll stick to brian…”
”You don’t even love that Brian!”
”But I’m almost near to loving him!”
”Sira ka na bang talaga?”
I just smiled at him, ”I dunno. But my decision is final Yue. Bahala na.”
Biglang tumayo si Yue, ”Bahala na? o sige, bahala ka sa desisyon mo Sai. But if I don’t see things going smooth, you can’t stop me from interfering.”
Then he left.
And mom enters…
“Why did Yue left already? Was he in a hurry?”
”Maybe…” mom sits beside me at my bed and looked at me with worried eyes.
“I know there’s a problem but I won’t push you on telling basta when you can’t take it anymore, mom’s always here, ok anak?”
”ok mom.” nakakatouch naman si mommy… :’)
“Anak, nga pala. You better quit from your work, we don’t want to happen the same incident again…”
”But mom… we need money…”
“Don’t worry Sai. Dad got a big promotion in the company… everything’s going to be smooth again, so enjoy ok? Don’t tire yourself that much, I don’t want to lose you.” And she hugs me and kisses me on my forehead and she left afterwards.
*toot-toot*
From: Cedric
Babygurl, so howd it go? Miss u already. Luv u! <3
I so love to read those same old sweet messages but…
*toot-toot*
From: Brian
I’m on my way home. I’ve heard the news & I’m freakin worried bout u. T^T
…but me and Cedric don’t seem to be destined for each other…
He is just an ex. Nothing more.
I replied to Cedric's message.
To: Cedric
Pls meet me 2day at the ***.
-send-
He replied and said ok.
I fixed myself and went to ***.
Nung makarating ako eh saktong dating din nya, he was holding a bouquet of flowers…
”Babygurl, for you.” he hands me the flowers and kissed me on the cheek. He held my hand, ”Let’s go inside.”
Sinubukan nyang hilahin ako sa kamay papasok ng *** pero di ako nagpahila. Tumingin sya sakin ng may pagtataka.
”No need Cedric, di tayo magtatagal. Sandali lang ‘to.”
”Eh?”
”Cedric, we can’t bring back anything anymore. Kyla’s sick and she has cancer, I want you take care of her please. Make her happy and love her. That’s all.”
Tatalikod na sana ako ng pigilan nya ako, ”Sai, I d—“
”And I’ve realized, I loved Brian more than I’ve loved you. And yeah, thanks for this flowers but just go visit Kyla and give this to her.” binalik ko yung bulaklak sa kanya and I turned my back at him and walked away while tears fell off my eyes.
This is like a dejavu… this is the second time I turned my back at him and walked away but this time, I didn’t trip nor fell on the mud. I don't even know if I should I call it luck at all?
