Bloodloss: An Alec and Magnus (Malec) Fanfiction

Chapter 5

I sit in the library for a while, then, as I up sharply. I am so selfish. Today is my last day with Izzy and Jace, and it’s unfair to them to spend it all hidden in the darkness of the library. I’m going to miss them so much, and I’m wasting the precious time I have with them mourning over something I can’t change. I will be sad, of course I will. But I owe it to Izzy and Jace – owe it to myself – to make this last day about us, not me.

Half an hour later we end up at surrounding the fire in the library, the flames dancing shadows across our faces, reminiscing. It mustn’t seem very special, but to each of us it’s magical. As we sit, remembering the past to avoid thinking about the future, I wonder if that’s all reminiscing is; distracting ourselves from the unknown by reminiscing each other of all the amazing things the past held. It’s kind of beautiful.

“Remember when you first came to live here?” Izzy asks Jace.

“I thought I was going to hate it, and hate all of you too.” He laughs.

“Thank God you didn’t or this would have been an awkward few years.” I reply jokingly.

“What about when Clary and Simon arrived?” Jace asks. “I just knew they belonged. Well, I was sceptical about Simon, but they did just become part of the team, didn’t they?”

Izzy and I exchange a glance and burst out laughing.

“Speak for yourself!” I grin.

“Yeah, I hated them both. Especially Clary.” Izzy winks.

I know she’s just saying it to annoy Jace, but I also know that what she’s saying is true, and I used to feel that way too. I hated Clary and Simon because they’d burst into my perfect life and messed it all up. But looking back, maybe my life wasn’t as perfect as it seemed. Maybe we needed Clary and Simon. But they’d stolen Jace and Isabelle from under me, and I was so jealous. Looking back, my actions were embarrassing. I didn’t make them welcome at all, and I was the eldest. I should have known better. I was a total jerk, but I’m glad that now I can consider them my friends.

Jace elbows Izzy, who’s giggling.

“Yeah, I seem to remember you already had Simon wrapped around your little finger.” Jace retaliates and Izzy shoves him in the shoulder indignantly.

“Yeah, but at least I hadn’t fallen for my sister.” She points out.

“No, you’d fallen for the mundie.” I remind her, and I’m rewarded with a punch in the arm. “I’m really going to miss you.” I say suddenly.

The random outburst is out of character, but Jace and Izzy don’t seem to notice.

“We’ll miss you too.” Jace tells me.

“Yeah, but we’ll still see you. You can come to the Sanctuary…and we’ll meet up all the time. I’m not losing my big brother and best friend that easily.” Izzy says and I nod. “I love you.” She blurts.