Demons || Jaythan

The Phoenix

Hey young blood

Doesn't it feel like our time is running out?

I'm gonna change you like a remix

- The Phoenix; Fall Out Boy. 

Chapter Ten: 

"So what are you going to do?" 

There was a silence - a painfully long silence - and then there was no silence at all; the demon had started to walk closer to me, his footsteps echoing around the room, mirroring the beating of my heart. "More riddles! I know you love them."

I bit my lip to stop the groan from escaping. 'conceal all of your emotions' he had told me. 'emotions equal weakness and you can't be weak if you're completing my tasks for me, that's what I chose you especially young one.' 

He was wrong however, I'm not strong: I am anything but that. 

If I was as strong as he praised me to be, I wouldn't feel anything before, after and during all these murders that he's had me do. Every time I would feel sick to my stomach and once I had created my first laceration into the poor, poor innocent person he's had me kill I would feel how great it was, how liberating it is and then afterwards I would feel incredibly guilty. My emotions constantly juxtaposed each other and is the complete opposite of what a strong person should feel. Guilt and regret are a sign of weakness, not being strong. 

"Are you ready for your first riddle? Remember what happens if you get at least one wrong? I really hope you do fail this test young one, I have something really special planned for your next victim and I am sure that you will just love it." He smiled. 

"As you should know by now, I'm going to make you do it anyway." His smile soon turned into a smirk and - as usual - a shiver ran up my spine and I could feel my stomach churning. 

* * *

It wasn't a surprise that I had my hair stuck to my forehead from my sweat or the fact that I was panting and breathing heavily like a dog. It was something that I was now used to, I had it every single night now and I doubted that It would ever go away. I guess it was just something that I had to get used to as I had no other choice. 

I was grateful that Jay always, always calmed me down after having a nightmare and looked after me. He would make sure I was alright and would stay awake until I drifted off back to sleep. I never liked falling back to sleep after having a nightmare and I knew I'd struggle to fall asleep again after this particular one.

It truly outdid the rest in terms of being gruesome. The level of detail he had just told me of what I had to do to another innocent person was enough to even knock the strongest sick. It was dreadful and I really didn't want to do this but I knew I was going to be made to do it. He always threatened me that If I didn't do the task that he would do something terrible to me. A silly thought crossed my mind which left as soon as it appeared, that maybe it was better for him to punish me for not completing the task. But I couldn't do that, I couldn't leave Jay. I guess I just have to be brave and suck it up. 

"Want to talk about it?" Jay asked. He always asked me this and every time I would shake my head - He knew that and I knew that but he never failed to ask. 

I could feel tears stinging my eyes but I swallowed them back - or at least tried to."I-it was just so bad...so bad. I--"

And the flood gates opened. 

This is what I meant about not being strong, If I was strong I wouldn't be crying like a baby right now but I couldn't help it. I was tearing apart at the seams I couldn't possibly hold it all in anymore. All of this - The demon, the murders, the nightmares had taken over my life and taken over my sanity I didn't even know what was left of my sanity, if there was any left which I highly doubted. It had all got too much for me and I couldn't handle it anymore so I just sort of exploded and had a break down, It felt like I was just nothing but a void. I didn't feel like a person anymore, I just felt like a gaping hole of nothingness was inside of me and one day it would destroy me and break down the walls that I had built around me would just crumble.

And that day was today. 

This probably doesn't make sense but oh well. If you are confused about what the demon is going to make Nathan you'll find out in the next chapter which will be posted whenever It's possible, maybe sometime next weekend??? Idk depends if teachers decided to give me a load of homework on top of revision again :(.

School sucks.

Who invented school? I really don't like them whoever it was. 

I really don't know what to say....

Bye! - Talia x