Demons || Jaythan

Out Of My Head

To shut out feeling lonely; I get out of my head

Lost everything around me

Not dealing with it well

To shut out feeling lonely; I get out of my head

- Out Of My Head; John Newman

Chapter Nineteen:

I had been at this facility for nearly two months now; it was a strange experience but I was feeling bitter sweet about it ending. I was going home tomorrow. I liked it here, the people were nice and my nightmares were kept at bay. I could honestly say that I've not had a single one ever since I was placed in here. The only bad thing about being here was the new roommate that I had, he was called Steve and had severe schizophrenia - just like myself - and bipolar disorder.

And of course not being able to see Jay or for him to hold me in his arms, that was the other bad thing.

Speaking of Jay, he was going to visit me today, they told me that I was safe enough for us two to be in the room together now. And that made me the happiest I think I've ever been; besides being asked out by Jay two, nearly three years ago now.

"So what's this... This Jay like then?" Steve called from his side of the room. "Is he good in bed."

Yes.

I raised my eyebrow but didn't answer.

"Is he hot?"

Yes.

Once again, I didn't answer.

Thankfully the door opened revealing the doctor that I had come to label as one of my friends in here.

"Mr. Sykes, your visitor is waiting for you." Doctor. Barlow smiled and so did I.

I followed him out of the door, my roommate called out a goodbye but I just ignored him. That's what he got for being an intrusive bastard. Saying that, he wasn't that bad he has cheered me up many of times even though I've only been rooming with him for a little less than two weeks. As per usual there were a group of other doctors that would escort me along with Dr. Barlow but by now the number of doctors had decreased, I know only had a total number of five.

I guess I had recovered but I feared when they released I would only get worse again once the demon could get to me. But I shook that thought out of my head, I couldn't let the demon get to me, not when I was about to see Jay - the love of my life.

The arrangement of the visiting room was very much like the ones you see in prisons on all the tv shows - especially the soap operas. There were probably about five rows each with around ten seats separated with a small white coffee table. To the naked eye, it looked cozy, quite endearing but really I thought it looked quite patronising. Especially the amount of guards and cameras that were in the room but I suppose they have to account for everyone's safety.

"Hey." I began as I took a seat opposite Jay. Looking at him I could tell how exhausted he looked and I felt terrible.

"Hi."

"What's wrong?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowed as I chewed on the inside of my lip, wincing as I bit a little too hard.

Jay sighed before he opened his mouth, as if to say something but then closed it and shook his head. "It's nothing." He forced a smile onto his face but I could tell that it was as fake.

"So, I get out tomorrow." I spoke up, attempting to lighten the mood. "I missed you."

"I missed you too," Jay reached out to grab my hand, a smile on his face; this time it was real. "You know, Nath... I think we should get away. Just- just me and you, together. Once you're out we can leave, we could move somewhere nice just us two against the world."

I was shocked at Jay's sudden proposition, where had this all come from?

"W-what?" I stuttered, was he serious?

"Yeah, I want us to get away Nathan, we can start afresh and you don't have to worry about anything."

Listen to him, young one.

My eyes widened, my heart dropped to my stomach and I could feel the dinner that I had just ate an hour ago rising back up my throat.

It was him.

The demon.

No. It couldn't be, could it?

All that was registering in my brain was the demon's voice, replaying over and over again in my head. I hadn't even noticed that Jay had started to speak again until he snapped his fingers in front of my face, making me jump.

Holding my hand on my heart I exclaimed in a hushed-whisper: "Jesus, don't do that! You frightened the life out of me!"

I heard the demon laughing but I blocked him out. In the words of Frozen: 'Conceal, don't feel.'

Jay looked at me apologetically.

"Please consider this Nath, I love you and wouldn't it be great if we got away? Started somewhere else where nobody knew us, they wouldn't even know a single thing about us. We would just be nobodies and we could live in peace without a blink of an eye from anyone."

I took in a deep breath as I took it all in, where would we go? Could we even afford this? I was indecisive, sure the idea of living in peace was appealing to me but I wondered about the other boys, what would they do?

Then again, they probably didn't want anything to do with me and personally: I don't blame them.

"I-I don't know, Jay."

Oh c'mon young one, you know that this is what you want - you get to run away, and there's so many people that you can kill without you getting caught. We both know that I'm speaking the truth so don't try to deny it.

"Please, just consider it, okay?" Jay mumbled, his warm hand held my cold one, his thumb soothingly swiping over the back of my hand.

I nodded. "Okay."

There was just one small problem that put me off the whole idea of running away with Jay:

Now that Jay was back, that meant so was the demon.

And I didn't want that.

But I guess that was a small price that I was going to have to pay if I wanted to be with Jay again.

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So the demon is back 😱

I feel like the ending of this chapter is a little rushed so I apologise! I have some type of sickness rn - like I don't know wtf is wrong with me I just feel really sick and I keep going very pale (I'm very pale already so that's saying something) - so I'm not on top form but I decided to update again bc I felt like it had been ages since I last updated this book and I felt terrible for not updating in ages!

So there is a big plot twist on the way, so get ready!!

There's probably going to be around thirty chapters to this book? Idk yet.

I don't know what I'm saying anymore it's like 6am okay bye - Talia xx