Learn to Love Again - Stampy and Squid

Chapter 15 - Breakups

Stampy's POV

I stare in shock and horror as Squid runs out of the room. He remembers. But he hates me now. Netty was right. He shouldn't have known, but... Surely knowing would be better than this.

"Stampy... You did the right thing, not telling him," Netty says with concern.

"Did I?" I ask quietly.

"Yes, you did. It would have been worse than this if you had told him before. You kn-"

"No. I don't know. I should have told him. I SHOULD HAVE TOLD HIM!" I scream the last part right at Netty's face. It's not fair to take it out on her; it's not her fault, but I feel like I have to scream at someone.

I launch myself up off the bed and run out the door past startled nurses and patients, past countless doors, past everything in the hospital. It's my mother's fault! If she hadn't beat Squid up, he wouldn't have remembered. I clench my fists, imagining them sinking into my mother's face.

I force my way through the doors and break into the outside world. Miraculously, I manage to make it to the train station before the tears come. I sink down on the same bench I sat on when I first arrived in this place and just sob. Huge, uncontrollable sobs that wrack my body with each breath.

After what seems like hours, I stop. I stop crying, but there's still a huge pain in my heart. What do I do? I can't go back to Squid's house. Who knows what he'll do to me?

I don't know how long I sit on that bench, just thinking. I do know that it's dark by the time I make a decision. I'll sleep here tonight, then in the morning I'll go and see my mother in prison. No matter what, she has to pay.

I lay down on the hard, wooden bench and close my eyes.

Squid's POV

I wrench open the door to my house and dive inside, slamming it behind me. I doubt Stampy will come back tonight. Good.

I can't believe he didn't tell me! What kind of friend is he? But... We all have our secrets. And he helps me. A lot. He stuck by me when I first recovered from my injury, and didn't mind having to explain everything twice so I could remember it. He really cares about me, even now.

How hard must it have been for him as I got together with Tessa, kissed her, loved her, and all he did was sit by and watch. That doesn't mean he couldn't tell me.

What happens with Tessa now? I'll have to tell her, for sure. But will she still love me after that?

Tessa's POV

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?

I flinch as I hear David yell at Joe.

"DON'T PRENTEND YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT! WHAT KIND OF FRIEND ARE YOU? YOU LIED TO ME!"

I hear Joe murmur a reply, trying to calm him down.

"I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF IT WOULD HAVE UPSET ME, I WENT AND GOT MYSELF A GIRLFRIEND AND YOU STILL DIDN'T TELL ME!"

My heart sinks. I was right. I didn't want to tell him in case it wasn't, but it is.

"FUCK OFF!"

I quickly scramble behind a potted tree, but I doubt Squid would've seen me anyway. I shut my eyes and sink down onto the floor. I won't cry, but that doesn't mean I can't hurt.

Joe loves David. They were together in the month that David couldn't remember. I can see the way Joe looks at him, and how it never quite felt right, kissing Squid. I love him, but I have to do what's best. And that means leaving him.

I sit on the ground for what seems like hours, but in reality is only a few minutes. I need some time to my self.

Squid's POV

I wander around my house, not liking the quiet at all. Stampy should be here, playing video games with me or laughing at a joke that one of us made, not sitting in a bed at the hospital.

But he betrayed me. How could he not tell me what happened between us?

The doorbell jolts me from my thoughts. I stand and cross the room slowly, really not wanting to see who it is, but I smile when I realise who's standing there.

"Hey Tessa!" I move in to hug her, but she pushes me away gently. Confused, I lead her back over to the couch, leaving the door open.

"Tessa, wh-"

"Listen, Squid." I fall silent. "I know what happened between you and Stampy." I stare at her in shock. How could she gave found out?

"I overheard at the hospital," she says as if reading my mind.

"Tess, I was going to tell you. I promise I was," I say in dread. I know what's coming next, and I'm not looking forward to it.

"I believe you," she says, and I know she does. Tessa doesn't lie. "Look, David. I promise I'm not mad at you, but...." Once again, I believe her. She's not mad at me.

"I know you love Stampy." She holds up her hand to stop me from talking. "Deep down, I know you do. That's why I think we should... Break up." She says it bluntly, although there's really no other way to say it. Without knowing what I'm doing, I nod.

She smiles through her saddened face. "That's all I need to say, although I hope we'll still be friends." I nod again, my heart breaking. I love Tessa, I really do, but there's something there that's stopping me from saying it again.

Once again, I move toward her as if to hug her, but she stands up and walks swiftly out the door. I stand there with my hand reaching out to her as if to pull her back to me, but the door closes, blocking her from my sight. I slump back in the chair, admitting defeat. What am I going to do without her? I think of Stampy, alone somewhere on the streets.

I've never felt so alone in my life.

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Hope you liked it :) Sorry if it was a bit crap. T8s 4 reedin :)))))

Also, I'm doing a Sqaishey/Stampy fanfic called 'I'll Never Say Goodbye'. It's a collab between myself and Misspolargirl, so make sure to check her out!