Learn to Love Again - Stampy and Squid

Chapter 17 - Panic

Squid's POV

I wake up after only having a few hours sleep. I couldn't get for sleep for some reason. Everything that happened yesterday was swimming around in my mind, not going away.

I stand up, stretching, and walk out of my bedroom feeling heavy. Is it possible that I do like Stampy? I feel an ache in my heart at the thought of him, only to push it away angrily. I love Tessa!

But she broke up with me. She broke up. With me because she knows that I love him, deep down. I hurts to admit it, but I do. The more I think about it, the more it becomes real. I love Stampylongnose.

Where did he go yesterday? I assume he didn't stay at the hospital, after what I said. He must have slept on the streets somewhere.

I have to find him.

Stampy's POV

I walk steadily out the door, wave to Beth, and then run full pelt away from the station. If my mother gets transported somewhere else, which seems likely, that was the last time I'll ever see her. Good. I never want to see that woman again.

About ten minutes later, I stop running. I collape on the ground, thoroughly out of breath. Squid...

I pull out my phone and hover my finger over Squid's name in the contacts list. One tap and I can talk to him again, but will he want to talk to me? I close my eyes and press it.

My heart beat seems to fill my ears as the ringing noise sounds around the empty park I ended up in. I open my eyes as I hear the click that signifies someone answering the call. I sigh in relief. He answered it!

"Squid...?" I ask tentatively.

"Stampy!" I flinch at the noie of his voice. Is he shouting at me?

"Stampy!" Squid says again. "Stampy! Where are you?"

I look around. "I have no idea. In a park somewhere." I feel fear start to rise up inside of me. I hate being lost.

"Is there a large building near you or something?" He asks me. I look around me again.

"No, just houses. The sign says Fredrick Street, though."

"Ok. Listen, Stamps. I'm gonna come and get you. You stay there." His voice sounds urgent for some reason.

A drop of water falls on my head, then another. I begin to panic again. I can't do this. I can't wait in a thunder storm!

"Stampy, I know you're scared, but you're going to have to brave it out. I know exactly where you are, and I'm gonna come and get you. Wait there! Please?"

I nod, even though he can't see me. "Ok. I'll try."

"I'll be there in fifteen minutes. Wait for me." He seems to hesitate before continung. "Remember I lo-"

I take my phone off my ear only to see a pitch black screen. I try to turn it on again, but It's dead. I'm all alone in the rain without a phone. Wait. What was Squid saying before it cut off?

It sounded like 'I love you'.

I close my eyes and lean back onto a tree. I have to wait for Squid in a thunderstorm. Last time I did this, Squid lost a month of his memory. He got it back, but was it for the better?

Squid's POV

"Remember, I lo-"

A loud beeping noise cuts me off. I swear loudly. His phone must have died. In a way, it's better that way. I was about to tell him that I love him again. Maybe it's better if he doesn't know just yet.

Grabbing my hoodie from my bedroom floor, I run out the door not bothering to lock it behind me. It's the middle of the day; no one's going to try anything.

Rain splatters heavily on my hair, making it soaking wet. I pull the hood up over my head, but it's soaked through in minutes. I remember now that Stampy's terrified of thunderstorms. I run faster.

I really need to get my car serviced. It would be a lot easier. And it has a GPS. I have no idea where Fredrick Street is, let alone Stampy. I was trying to reassure him. I could ask for directions, but it would take too long. I don't remember where any places are yet, but it'll come back to me.

He can't have gone far from the hospital; he can barely run. So I start on the street where the hospital and look around for a park, or a sign that says 'Fredrick Street'. Nothing.

Thunder claps loudly overhead. I glance down at my watch.  Shit.  I'm not going to find him in time.

Stampy's POV

*Ten minutes later*

I shrink back into my tree as thunder booms loudly overhead. Squid should be here by now.

I feel tears prick my eyes. Did he forget about me? No. He can't have. He wouldn't leave me here.

Would he?

I shake my head. No, he wouldn't. He's my best friend, or at least was. He wouldn't just forget about me.

That doesn't change the fact that I'm outside in a thunderstorm. I hope Squid remembers that, at least.

Rain continues to pour down on me. At least the tree I'm under provides some kind of protection.  

Five minutes later, I still sit there huddling my shoulders together.  Soaked through to the skin, I feel my heart begin to beat faster.  Thunder booms loudly again.  I bite back a scream.

I stand up.  I can't take it anymore.  I start to run, the wind whistling in my ears blotting out the sound of pounding rain on the cement.  My breath begins to get shorter and slower.  Good.  There's nothing left for me to live for.

An ache forms in my chest, a pain that starts in my heart and spreads throughout my entire body.  My stomach heaves as I collapse on the ground, getting even more wet.  My stomach heaves again and foul smelling liquid spreads it way around me.

Lightening flashes overhead, lighting up my vision momentarily before it goes black.

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I'm sorry if it sucked, but I hope you enjoyed anyway!

I would've updated sooner, but I got sidetracked by watching Les Mis.  

Totally worth it.