Forgiving Him|Completed

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I'm a mess. Everything about me is a mess. Without my kids and my job, I'm probably sure my whole life would've been a mess too.

I wanted to show the girls around. I wanted to have a fun time with Darcy. I wanted to step unto the streets of New York City without any surprises.

But that didn't end well, I had to be surprised. I had to meet Gideon. I had to be disappointed. I had to be pulled back into that dark place after trying so hard for seven years. I had to go back to start from scratch because dark days are back.

I thought it was difficult battling depression when I was pregnant, always putting on a smile for everyone to see you're fine before they freaked out and sent you straight to the hospital, meanwhile deep down, I was anything but happy.
But that was just a thought.

It gets more difficult now that my girls are with me and not in my tommy, so smart at the age of seven that's it's horrifying.

They would see right through me. At least Gabrielle would. And Arielle when she's not focused on food. And Marielle when she's not hogging a book.

"Theodetia?" My mom asks knocking on the door. And for a moment I'm hesitant to say 'come in'.

Not because of the way I look, but because every time she calls me by my full name and not my nicky, there is something wrong.

"Come in" I say, mustering courage to take in what's coming, which I know will not be good.

"Honey, what's wrong? You look like a train wreck" she says

I am a train wreck.

"What happened last night? Darcy brought the kids home in a swift. She didn't answer any of my questions, telling me is not her place. Which is bullshit, because since day one, Darcy she has always said stuff that are not in her place to say" mom says, rubbing her hands on my back

"Well it all came back mom. Gideon came back. Memories came back. Pain came back. Sadness came back. All the things I've tried so hard to put away, leave it in my past, let it be my past, all came back."

"Oh honey, I'm so sorry. You know in hard times you just have to have faith in God. I'm not going to ask how things went. Because I know it wasn't good. But all Imma tell you is to be strong, as you've always been. If you've been able to hold on tight for seven years. Baby what's a day or two?" She says and I nod, understanding her completely.

"What's that you're holding?" I ask her, noticing a graph paper in her other hand

"Oh this is a newspaper. Just got a little hooked up on the headlines." She says, placing it at her back.

More like hiding it now

"So what does the headline say?"

"Not important" she shrugs it off, getting up

"Mom. Please. Give it." I say and she hands it over, not bothering to argue

I gasp at what is written.

Right there, is me. In the Night Family Restaurant. Confronting Gideon. I look so mad.

Who even took this?

Guess the people at the restaurant weren't just watching. They were sharing too.

True.

Jace Stark's MIA girlfriend from years ago, is finally back in New York.
But where is the man himself?

Where is the man himself? What is this suppose to mean?

I need answers. And it's only one place I can get it from