"I-I I don't know" was the only words I can let out. Tears were running down my face as Zach continued to lecture and yell at me, I could understand why he was upset because I came here not even knowing what I was getting myself into. Why did I actually think I can come here, no feelings attached? I was stupid. My heart was beating fast, it was good to know that Zach loved me, he was actually pouring his feelings out to me, for the first time.
"You make me crazy.. I don't know what I'm gonna do without you here Cindy, I can't function without you here.. with me, I'm sorry for yelling at you" Zach said, we were both standing up looking at each other. I just had a big tee shirt on and he had his shirt on and boxers. Both of our hairs were messily flopped on our heads, lips swollen from our make out session. He walked closer to me as I crossed my arms, he grabbed my hand and held it with his. "You can't leave.." his raspy voice piercing through my ears, killing me every time. I know I can't leave him.. I don't even think I have the strength to. "I wish we could just run away together, no headlines, no paparazzi. Just me and you.. and only us" I mumbled sniffling. He sighed, looking down at the floor.
"I love my life, I love my fans.. I can't just go, they depend on me.. I'm an inspiration and this is why I'm here.. because I love what I do" Zach said. Why is it always them? Why can't it just be us? "I don't think I can handle it anymore.." I said honestly. I really couldn't, I wasn't lying and I wasn't expecting him to choose his fan base over me.
My arms were crossed again as Zach continued to explain why he loved it here. His band mates, his manager, whom I hated. "I'm not happy.. trust me Zach, I really wish I was as happy as you are, which is good to see, I just really don't think this fame and fortune is for me" I was speaking truth, I couldn't fake it anymore. "I don't want to be here" I finally let out. The relief came over me, and that shame and guilt vanished. "So that's why I'm asking you, to just run away with me and leave this all behind..I love you Zach, and that is why I'm asking you to do this for me, and if you don't want to, I'll just do it myself" my arms were still crossed and Zach's eyebrows furrowed in disbelief.
Zach's POV
She can't be serious.. is she actually serious? The girl of my dreams is really giving me an ultimatum. She's really making me choose between my fans and her, but why is this a tough decision? Why am I even thinking twice? I loved my fans, they were my everything... but this girl, this girl is the reason why I continue to live.. gosh, I sound like a pussy.. but she really was. "It's always you, it's always going to be you..so I guess" I said. Her eyes widening as she ran towards me and leaping into my arms, her arms wrapped tightly around me and her head muzzled into my shoulder.. "So is that a yes?" She asked grinning widely, tears were brimming her eyes as well as mine. I'm not crying because I was happy, I was crying because I was lying to her.. how could I agree to this ? I wasn't going to be happy..
"Yes"
