Faded -On Hold/Editing-

Chapter 40

There I lay above him with my limbs tangled around his waist and neck, my lips never detached from his. I was afraid our lips turned purple from how pressed they were. Kidding, it's that white tablet that's giving me the funny feeling, yet I did not care. This was a great, new but familiar feeling. Oddly familiar that I couldn't recognize it. Familiar in a way that I haven't experienced. Does that make any sense?

I chose to ignore that little warning at the back of my messed up brain and continued with the fun.

Marks on my neck, collarbone and jaw won't be going away til after two days to three. Not that it mattered anyways, let it matter later when I'm sober, not now. I left the most marks on the bird on his neck, because I really liked it. Half the time, my fingers absentmindedly roamed over his tattooed arms, especially that big blue flower with red outlines on his left. He'd moan for every move I'd make; tugging at his brown hair, biting his lip and lip ring. Oh that cool metal that blends in with the heat of our make out. I'd probably regret this later on, but I would never deny that Ethan's one hell of a kisser.

I pulled away from him, each knee rested on his sides, I was sitting on his bingo as he played with my tangled hair and I moaned for him. Lets hope no one enters the room, or else that would've been weird, regardless whether I was drunk or not, I can still be embarrassed.

I felt him harden beneath me, causing the heat to rise in my cheeks. If my cheeks weren't already red. He immediately shot up from the bed, bringing me up with him as his hands were on my hips.

"Um I think I should go, I don't wanna take advantage of you because you're drunk" he ruffle his hair, gently sitting me back on the bed and twisting the door knob.

I shrugged and gave him a lopsided grin. "Ok then, have a good evening" I waved at him. I know I would've felt differently but I'm not in the right state of mind to feel anything but funny right now. The way my surroundings moved was odd and definitely not normal in away way possible. Seems fine with me anyways.

He seemed shocked, expecting me to react somewhat differently. That's what I thought too! I internally laughed and waited for him to say something. "Y-you're not upset?" trust me, I'm just as puzzled as you are. Yet I'm not confused at all. Funny isn't it?

"No" I shrugged, not getting why I should feel upset. "Plus there are a lot of boys around here, I can just choose any" now that is how you live a real party. First time I've done this actually, because I knew I'd never cheat on Alan- who cares about him now anyways? I wanted to party like there ain't no tomorrow just like he was. Isn't that what he's doing?

"Wha-why are you telling me this?"

"Is there anything wrong with what I said?" I laughed from confusion. "Isn't that what we're all here for? To loosen up and enjoy the party?" smiling sincerely, I laid back down because I felt dizzy and my head was heavy, like a chimpanzee was peeling his banana while sitting on it.

"The fuck is wrong with you?" I flinched at his harsh tone and sat up, all I could see written on his face was blah blah blah confusion. Now that, is what I understood. He sighed and stepped out the room, right before he could close the door, he abruptly turned back around.

"It's midnight by the way"

He was completely out of my sight without fixing his sexy hair. Oh well he looks better like that anyhow. Oh how it feels good to tug at it. Just the thought if it makes me bite my lip. "Alright then, goodnight" I awkwardly said, to myself basically.

Moments later, again, a weird feeling hit me like a tsunami. Moments later, Lexi came in appearing slightly sober, unlike me. Seems like the alcohol won't wear off.

"Samantha!" she exclaimed, wow it seems like I haven't seen her in forever! She looks rather taller.

"Heyaaaa Lex! This party is awwwweeeeesome!" I glanced around the big room, wide eyed.

"Uh Sam, you're in an empty room.. That you and Ethan Amsel made out in!!" she begun to jump up and down excitedly, I joined her and squealed with her.

"I know! And he just left because I don't know!" I started to repeat my previous actions but Lexi gave me a confused look. I stopped jumping and smiled innocently at her.

"Why would he leave you here? Ugh that jerk has no manners nor does he have a tiny bit of respect" she shook her head in anger.

"I told him I'll be fine! Lets just go have fun!!" I nodded eagerly, but stopped once my brain did flips, making my feel kind of nauseous.

"I don't think that's a good idea. I mean you're clearly not drunk and I know that you didn't smoke pot with those druggies outside. I don't know what's going on with you, but I got a word for you; weird" she put a hand on my shoulder and gave me a worried glance.

"I feel better now so I think we should just join them!!!" I never smoked pot in my life, so why not?! I know Gabe would be upset but I know it's worth risking.

"Are you crazy? We might be heavy drinkers, but we are not druggies. We are not like them. We're not smoking and that's final" she finalized, I pouted and crossed my arms. Why is she being so bossy?

"Party pooper!" I let go of her arm and stumbled my way outside the massive house. It was chilly but I ignored the goosebumps on my skin. Surprisingly, I don't find Nathan and Ian at the front porch. Hm, I'm guessing someone sober drove them home.

But when I made my way to the back of the house, I thought to myself:

"I don't think they left this party.. and I don't think he did either"

Disappointment and betrayal hit me like a second tsunami, how dare he come out here to smoke pot? Most of all, why was I suddenly feeling this way? He's not mine to tell him what and what not to do. However, can you really think I can help the feeling?

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