Trust Issues

Trust Issues 6

PART 6

So now that Darnell is in Jail I can stop and think a little, the only thing on my mind is Making it to this Clinic or the Doctors office before they close. Because I have so many things going threw my head. ( And Darnell has the nerve to be putting me threw this) especially after I been sick and he been taking care of me like he wasn't doing nothing this whole time.
But my mind is blown because if he would have told me he had HIV' a year ago I would have only kept it at a friendship level. (but that's what I Get)
I called the Clinic on Willern Ave' They we're done taking Paitents🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ So I had to wait my stomach was I knots' I guess I was so upset I started to 🤢 🤮 well my driver is here! I just wanna go home and take a shower, and get this Blood off of me😞😒😕 and think about what I should do next.

Uber: Hi are you Destiny?
Yes Ma'mm
I gave her the directions straight to my house' we pulled up I said thank you she said to me' I can tell a woman's Pain And Said God Bless You! It will Get Better! ( I got chills because I knew what she spoke was in the making) " I walked into the house and my plug in 🔌 air freshener smelled like Darnell's Cologne' I threw up instantly😪😵🤢🤮 Something wasn't right' <EVERYONE WAS CALLING ME > I put my phone on 'DND' Layed on the Couch for a while & started my shower🚿 ' as I went get my towels and clothes' my phone went off like an alarm telling me my cycle was coming on today 'l
GOOD THING I GOT SOME GOOD DICK BEFORE IT CAME ON!
Still disgusted about what I heard.
😮😵 I went in the bathroom to take my shower, I sat down to pee' & Boom there you have it 😞😞this was not what I was ready for right now 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️
Fuck 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
All women knows what that means,
I wiped again it was gone, i was like maybe I'm stressed or I bumped myself the wrong way , but anyways I decided to Pee on a test I had sitting in my drawer for a week! & instantly hopped in the shower 🚿🧼 right after ' I must have washed my color off my body I scrubbed so hard, still thinking about this HIV thing. Knowing my life was over, but I may still have a chance.
I stayed in the shower so long I done used all the hot water so I guess I'm done only to get out of the Bath Tub To See a €€ BIG PLUS + SIGN ON THE BATHROOM COUNTER 🥺🥺😮😮😮😮😮😮😮#PREGNANT 🤰🏾
All I could do is lay in bed and Cry Because not only I might have HIV' I'm carrying a child that I wasn't expecting. And what if the child Comes out with the same thing😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 So many things I want to do and say But I'm Gonna' be a woman about the situation and Say TO BE CONTINUED..................