BLACK | jung jaehyun [on hold]

eleven

after their trip, jeno spent most of his days distancing himself from his best friend.

there was something different about him that made jeno long for him.

the reality of it was too much for jeno.

he didn't know what else to do.

but constantly, on his mind, was jaemin.

jaemin this.

jaemin that.

jaemin, jaemin, jaemin.

jeno wanted him much more than he's ever wanted anything else in his life.

and it was eating him up inside because jaemin loves you.

he thought about the last time they had interacted.

he shouldn't have screamed that at jaemin then.

"why do you keep saying that i'm lying when i was drunk out of my mind that night?"

jaemin had said.

jeno was heated then but he just wanted to know the truth.

"i wouldn't have to if you told the truth beforehand!"

jeno said back to him.

"this is really fucking childish. both of us didn't even remember that night because of how wasted we were!"

jaemin had pointed out, running his fingers through his har furiously.

"but i remember all that happened, why don't you?"

jeno had shouted.

jaemin was beyond angry and confused at the same time.

"i said i was drunk. can't you let it go? it happened weeks ago!"

"how can i let that shit go when it's fucking tearing me apart from the inside?"

jeno exclaimed and jaemin grows quiet for a short while.

"did i do something to offend you? is that why you're so fucking emotional? do you like love me or something?

jaemin said, his tone was calm and his were eyes serious.

"leave. now."

jeno had said, his feelings burning inside his heart.

then jeno watched as jaemin walked out and slammed the door of his house, disappearing before his very eyes.

jeno regretted everything right there and then.

he wanted jaemin to forgive him for accusing him so badly.

he wanted to talk to him again, be able to make jokes and hang out with him.

he wanted jaemin again.

• • •

these past weeks in class, jaehyun didn't bother me at all.

in fact, he sat somewhere else and stayed quiet.

he was so silent that every other voice could be heard and jaehyun was the only one who kept his cool.