Unknown Number ~ A Greys Anatomy / MerLuca Story

goodbye for now :)

Derek's POV

That was a mistake... I don't think she is going to believe it's real. Then she'll really leave.

"Derek... Please," Meredith said.
"What?"
"I trust him. He wouldn't do this. I don't trust you at all," she replied.
"Meredith, I can explain."
"No I will. You came here and tried to make me think Andrew was cheating on me. I won't fall for it. This hurts me but please leave," she said.

She stood up and gave me a hug.
"But I'm happy you're doing well."

No this can't be happening.
"I noticed that you're not dressed for work," she said.
"I might have lied about working here..." I told her.

She looked relieved that I wasn't going to be staying. I felt hurt that she has moved on so fast. But maybe I ruined things past repair. I decided to own up to it.

"I faked the letter."
She smiled. "Thank you for telling me that. I'll miss you wherever you go after this."

I gave her a bittersweet smile. I know what went wrong in our marriage and I remember why it didn't work in the end. As much as it hurt me to let go, I knew it was for the best.

I watched as she walked out of the on call room. I felt myself collapse on the bed. I spent almost 10 minutes just staring at the bottom of the bunk above me.

Not thinking, just staring. I didn't lie when I said I was dating someone. I was just hoping that Meredith wouldn't be. I wanted something to work but now I realize that I'm stupid for even trying.

My girlfriend lives back in Manhattan with me. I moved back there after quitting working in D.C. I went back to with my mom and sisters. They actually convinced me to come down to Seattle for Meredith. I knew it was a silly idea.

I decided that I need to leave. I got up from the on call room and walked out.

As I finally left the building, I took one last look before leaving forever. I felt a pain in my chest as I drove to the airport.

I kept repeating to myself that this was for the best.
This was for the best.
This was for the best.

I need to leave her alone. She went through something traumatic because of me and I feel awful. How could she ever love or trust me again?

That's how I knew I made the right decision.

I pulled out my phone and went into Meredith's contact.
I sent one last message to her before deleting her number.

"goodbye for now :)"