A Little Push And I'd Fall

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Kissing improves memory

Kissing causes causes a chemical reaction in the brain which lowers a woman’s risk of suffering from depression.

Passionate kissing burns 6.4 calories in a minute.

Nakailang tabs na rin ang na open nya. She’s trying to divert her anger and grief over different things. Bakit ba puros ganito ngayon ang mga articles na binabasa niya? Ah basta dapat marami syang alam. Ayaw nyang patalo kay Thirj and his kissing game.

‘Give me good reason why I should kiss you. Give me good reason why I should kiss you. Give me good reason why I should kiss you,’ parang sirang plaka na paulit-ulit sa isip ni Saab. Naalala niya ang sinabi ni Thirj one time. Parang nag-e-echo ang bawat salitang binitawan ni Thirj kasabay ng pag replay ng bawat halik na kanilang pinagsaluhan. It’s been a while since they went out together. It’s been a while since they talked. Yung “inhibition-free day” nila yung huli nilang pagkikita at ng halos lahat ng uri kumunikasyon nila. Kasi naman, she made that big leap of creating a big distance between the, because she’s a big girl now who is too scared of big possible things she can’t handle. Pero di nya alam kung ano ang kinatatakutan niya. She’s afraid of something unknown. Or maybe, she’s just too afraid to acknowledge the mere existence. Yes most probably kung ano man yon, AND! She just won’t admit that she misses him already. It keeps on messing with her head big time. Naiinis sya sa sarili dahil walang permiso itong sumasagi na lang basta-basta sa kanyang isipan palagi. “Damn those kisses,” she whispered.

“Yeah, damn those kisses,”

Daglian niyang pinatay ang kanyang iPad at liningon ang nagsalita.

“Ilang araw ka nang nandito?”

“Eight days,”

“What do think are you doing?”

“Living,”

“Or leaving?”

“Both,”

“Paano yung anak nyo?”

“Yuan, please. Stop playing Cupid. It’s over,”

“I’m not, Saab. My niece is involved here. Totohanan na ‘tong mga nangyayari. And it’s alarming,”

Napatingin si Saab kay Yuan, “all this time you are not helping for the annulment, aren’t you?”

“Yes,”

“Are you really my cousin?”

“I’m your husband’s cousin,”

“Oh yes, I almost forgot,”

“If you really want to leave Saab, leave Reese to Thirj,”

“Excuse me? Anak ko si Reese,”

“Anak nya rin si Reese and you know he can handle her better than you do,”

“I can take care of my child,”

“Stop talking bull shit!”

“Kuya!”

“You panic when she’s sick, you can’t tie her shoe laces well, you can’t comb her hair neat, you feed her with all your gusto without thinking of the nutritional facts, you –,”

“Are you saying I’m a failure as mother?” unti-unti nang dumadaloy ang mga luha ni Saab.

“That’s why you can’t leave him,”

“I CAN leave him and I will!”

“Wag ng matigas ang ulo, Isabelle,”

“This is a loveless marriage, Kuya,”