Roommates // shawn mendes x reader

❝ confessions ❞

Y/N's POV:

Next morning everything seemed normal.

We woke up, had breakfast together, we talked.

Later, he brings it up.

S: Did Daniel tell you anything?

Y/n: So what if he did?

S: Because I've said something that sounded wrong and it wasn't what I meant and never expected him to say it to you right away. He doesnt have to intervene in cases that have nothing to do with him.

Y/n: What did you tell him?

S: I just said that I know you like me. At least...that's what i think.

My jaw dropped and I couldn't think of something to say.

S: Look y/n.

He lifted my chin and I closed my mouth.

S: Wanna know the truth?

Y/n: Of course?

I answered almost questioning it.

Did I really wanna know?

Do I really wanna hear him say that he was playing with me?

...he never felt anything?

...I've always been a friend to him?

S: I liked you for a very long time.

My eyes widened and my heart skipped a beat.
I tried to comprehend what I heard.

S: Yeah... but-

He paused for a second to take a deep breath and then continued.

S: I felt like this was just a small crush because you're an attractive girl, y'know and I was with Anastasia since a while ago so i didn't let myself catch more feelings. More like, I tried to do that. I kind of failed.
We've been leaving here together for 2 years now. We're always together. Doing everything together. We've been through so many stuff together. Then again, you had Chris. That bastard. I'm still wondering what you liked in him. He's a disgusting and filthy male who just wants sex. That's why I was always acting like this. I'm not gonna lie, I was jealous. The thought of you with someone like him, made me furious because he doesnt deserve you. You can't put a piece of horseshit with a diamond.

I laughed at his statement and so did he.

S: Am i right so far?

Y/n: Since we're both telling the truth now, it's okay to tell you that I never really liked him and I was just trying to get over you.

S: Wow...

Y/n: Yup.

S: Well, you were playing with my anger issues.

Y/n: Whenever you acted like my dad i just got the impression that you were overprotective because I was 100% sure that you would never look at me the way you did with Ana.