𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔

𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐬

i've been trying to be strong. but it's hard. i'm sorry. i'm weak. i can't handle this pressure anymore. i feel myself falling apart. i can't do this by myself anymore. but i don't want you to worry. i've been trying to hold it together by myself. but it's so difficult. all this stuff that's being thrown at me, i can't handle it. it's too much pressure for me. 

i didn't want to tell you because you have your own life to deal with, and i didn't want to add any more problems to the problems you might be facing. 

i couldn't help but read one of your other letters. i tried to stop myself because i didn't want to be nosy, but i did anyway. and when i read it, my heart broke. but that's what life is about, isn't it? now i realize that i shouldn't been so stupid. if i hadn't looked at it, i wouldn't be writing this. 

if i hadn't been so nosy, there wouldn't be tears streaming down my face right now as i type. but that's all i can do. because i made a stupid decision. and this is my own fault. so i'm sorry. it wasn't really right for me to read something that was meant for something else. but you know what they say, "curiosity killed the cat." and i'm the cat. all i can do at this point, is pretend to be okay like i always do. 

-𝓔