A Collection of Snapshots, Imagines & Lemons

Broken Heart

She threw her phone on the bed and stared at it wishing she could dare to write what was truly in her heart. She spent a lot of time talking with Damien even though they had broken up not long after he moved away. It was hard the first few days when the blanket of sadness seemed to have settled heavily on her shoulders but it was getting easier to pretend that she didn't still have feelings for him.

Everything was going well until he asked about their relationship saying that he didn't want to lead her on. She told him that she knew they were just friends but she didn't add that in her heart she wished they were more. She didn't want to ruin what was their between them and wanted to show that even though they may not be a couple, she could still handle being with him.

She stared at her phone and began typing...

She wrote everything she wanted to say: I still love you. Everything reminds me of you. I thought I had finally gotten over you and I could finally move on but who am I kidding? My friends, my sister, they all know that I try to pretend that everything's ok but they see through the facade. They know I still smile when I see a message from you. They I constantly wait for your reply. That I would give so much up to be with you. I had many dreams and goals and that you were included in most of them. I should have seen the breakup coming but I didn't want it to. I tried getting over you and getting rid of all the pain I felt, but I couldn't cause you left a hole in my heart. I miss you making me laugh and making me feel loved. I miss being able to kiss you and hold you and just feel right. Maybe I'm delusional. Maybe I'm naive. All I know is I was happy.

Then she presses backspace...

And sends a funny meme from Reddit. Constantly hiding. Constantly regretting.

She calls her bestie and asks her to bring over tequila and ice cream. She's still a minor but who cares. At this point she doesn't. She just wants some relief and someone to talk to.

Should she risk losing it all or just stick to being a friend?

She nears her graduation and she should be happy but yet she feels like somethings lacking. She already knows where she's going and she knows she shouldn't hold too tight to the past because she'll be with completely new people in a few months. Different guys, different country but how can she move on when she doesn't feel like the past hasn't ended properly? Yet she sticks up her head, works hard, pushing on till graduation.

She has too many worries to focus on Damien. Money hasn't been easy. Trying to get scholarships gets tiring but Damien still somehow stays on her mind. She loves him.