Oneshots of Whatever (mainly Countryhumans) (Finished-ish)

1 - Anxiety

I had to get this out

My throat closed and my stomach dropped. My breathing quickened and my hands grew shaky. My mind was spinning. I couldn't concentrate. Everything was moving.

Everyone was looking at me.

Everyone was judging me.

The muffled voice of my best friend said something I couldn't hear.

My heart wad beating too fast.

I was crying.

Hunched over my work, shaking, gasping, crying.

I couldn't talk.

I couldn't say the lie I told everyone.

"I'm fine."

This was not fine.

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I stared at my bookshelf across the room. I was so useless.

My readers only wanted me for content.

I was crumbling under all these expectations.

I considered cutting.

I knew people would just get mad at me.

I was so spoiled.

My emotions left me to sit in the black void I called my mind. My room's lights were off. My candles were put out.

It was dark.

Just how I liked it.

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.

A heavy feeling attached itself to my heart anf pulled it down.

But I have an amazing life!

My parents love me.

My friends love me.

I'm being selfish.

I'm being so selfish.

I don't have a reason to be this depressed!

Et je ne peut pas parler avec quelqu'un parce que je vais penser que je suis stupide et que j'ai tous ces chose mais je ne peut pas être contant.

Je veux mourir.

I am so so selfish.