When It's Just Us ~TofuuDiger1~

21

~Tofuu~

Zach and I sat on my bed with a blanket covering us as we played a bunch of random PS3 games. "Joe?" My mom asked, knocking on the door. "Yeah?" We paused the game. "You can come in." She did. "You guys decent?" Zach blushed and looked away. I laughed. "Yup. Whats up mom?" She shut the door behind her as she walked in. "What you guys up to?" "Playing some video games. Do you need somthing?" I knew it was uncomfertable for Zach having my mom in here after what we just did. "I just want you boys to know something." She walked over to us as she lowered her voice. "Yeah..?" Zach avoided all eye contact. With me and my mom. "Scootch." My mom made us move towards the left side of my bed. She removed the blanket from around us and Zach looked at me. My leg was wrapped around his. His blush deepened. My mom said nothing about it. She sat down on the other side of Zach. "You boys are only 16. I know...I know you want to adventure around. And figure out who you are in this world, but...No more sex." I could tell Zach was getting tense. "What do you mean...Adventure?" I asked. Looking past Zach to my mom. "Well...to see if you really are gay." "Mom." I took Zach's hand in mine. "If being in love with this..beautiful, wonderful, amazing, sweet, adorable guy makes my gay. Then I am gay. So it's not adventuring its having love with someone you love. And...and who cares if we are only 16!?" I stood up, feeling sudden anger rise through me. I released Zach and his hand fell onto his lap. He looked weakly up at me.

"I could be doing anything! Drugs, alchohol, girls. Getting them pregnant! But no, I'm simply hanging out with my boyfriend!" "And that's fine! Joe, you aren't understanding. You can hang out, I just don't want you having sex!" She stood up too. "Why not? Whats so wrong with it!" She gently grabbed my hands. "Joe.." Her voice lowered. "Are you top or bottom?" "What the hell mom!" I yelled. I pulled my hands from her. "Tell me. Top, or bottom?" She stayed quiet and calm. "No way! That has nothing to do-" "He's top.." Zach said lightly from behind my mom, on the bed. "Z-Zach!" I yelled at him. He put his head down. Avoiding eye contact. My mom returned to me. "Think of Zach, Joe. Think of the issues you could cause him and his body. Don't you realize the pain you can, and may be putting him through?" "I..I don't want to talk about it.." She sighed. "Fine. But no more. Not until you're-" "We can't get married." "No, not that. Until you are both fully ready. Both mentally, and physicaly." She walked out of the room. I stood where I was.

"Joe, I.." Zach didn't look at me. "I'm sorry...I just didn't what you guys to argue anymore. I didn't want her to hate me..." "She could never hate you." I knelt down infront of him. "No one could." "Really? Because the whole school does.." "They don't know you." "Yeah well..Are you mad?" "How could I be mad?" "I told her you where top.." I smiled faintly. "It's fine.." "Joe.." I saw a slight tear roll down his cheek. "Hey now..Don't. Shh.." I took my thumb and whipped away his tear. "I-I..Joe...I can't..." I helped him stand and hugged him. "Are you okay?" "N-No.." he mumbled. "Zach, talk to me." He gripped me and held me closer. "I knew she would hear us. I knew I couldn't stay quiet." I rubbed his back. "Don't beat your self up. It's okay. I think she knew anyway..." He sniffled and cried into my shoulder. "Joe..It hurts. A lot. I didn't want to say anything because I knew you wanted to do it. And I...I did too but... it hurt so much, Joe.." 

My heart sank. I didn't know I was hurting him... 

~Poke~

I had to tall him. "Zach, i'm so sorry!" He grabbed my shoulders and looked deep into his eyes. "I didn't know! I really, really didn't! I wouldn't have done it if I knew it hurt you." "Thats why I didn't tell you.." "Hmm?" "I wanted to have sex with you...I really did. But it just hurt...it still hurts..." He wrapped his arms around me again. "I'm sorry..." "It's okay. But...I think your moms right..." "What?" "I'm sorry, Joe. I don't think we should have sex again. Not like..never. But not for a while.. O-Okay..?" I could hear the disapointment in his voice. "Y-Yeah. Okay.." "I'm sorry.." "No no. It's fine. I understand." "Are yo mad..?" "Nope. I could never be mad at my Zach." I smiled into his shoulder as my tears stopped coming. "I love you." "I...I love you too Joe." We stood standing, hugging. Until our legs got tired and we layed down on the bed.