There are a few dreams I feel are significant to mention here. Not only are they odd, they all hold meaning behind them, and so are not meant to be taken at surface level.
The first was quite short. Wolf had messaged me, and seemed bewildered. He said more, yet all I recall is: "Tell me, why do children stay?" Somehow, I knew that he meant me. He was asking me why i had chosen to stay with him. I answered: "Because children are entertained. But most importantly, because they care about those they stay with." I do not know how he responded, or if he responded at all. This was the very first time I realised just how much I truly care for him. But that is insignificant. It is insignificant to him, and so it should be to the rest of you. Leave it be. Do not call me out. "He will not care for you!" I am fully aware. I didn't choose to care for him because I wish for him to return it. That is not caring about an individual. That is attention seeking. I care for him just because I enjoy him as who he is now; bold, strong and playful. He needn't become "softer" because it isn't who he is. I wouldn't like him as that individual, because it would no longer be Wolf. After working so hard to achieve this position, you wish for me to disrespect him in that way? He deserves more respect than the entire mankind combined. He is unique, and his own individual. I care for him because he is different, because he is who he is.
What sort of care, you ask? The kind that makes me afraid every time he speaks, in fear that he will leave. I let him think it was due to the fear of death. I do not fear death, I simply get upset at leaving others behind. Yes, I fear him. It'd be a lie if I were to say I did not. I fear what he will do, I fear his unpredictability. My heart comes up to my throat and back down again every time he messages me. I think: "will he call me out again? Will he give me another chance to prove myself?" For I feel as if he has given me many already. Yet I keep dragging myself into more trouble. Each more significant than the rest. I fear that my death will be at his hands, when I know I have done nothing wrong (willingly). I enjoy and yet fear his company. If he were to leave, I'd lose a friend; a friend I've come to care for. Will he hear of this? Possible. Will he be enraged? Likely. In the rare case that he will be amused, I am publishing this.
The second dream was regarding Wolf giving me a job. He had told me to send certain videos and pictures to a girl called Mia. The first I had sent her was of Wolf wearing his mask, speaking to the camera as he sat on my sofa in my house. This was the first time I had seen him in person. Unfortunately, I did not open the video. Then the Rest were baby pictures and strange locations I explained the names of. One of the names began with L, but that is all I recall. I do not know the meaning behind this particular dream, or why Wolf had asked me such an odd thing. Mia did not seem pleased, however. Were the pictures of her childhood? Possibly. I do not know what Wolf wished to show her, but it didn't appear to be anything good.
Edit: Just now, when I was dozing off, I saw blood on my hands. I brought my hands up to my face and they were bloody. A strange language appeared beside my hand. It was so terribly odd. I was in a black void.
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The journal of odd occurences
Non-FictionI have created this journal due to recent occurences. I will record all that I see, hear, and feel. Nevertheless, this will be my only comfort through the coming days. I do not know why these have come to occur, or how. But I am looking to find out.
