Yes, your eyes are not playing tricks on you. You've read the title correctly. Although this pains me immensely, and breaks my heart, it must be done. Often, the very things that we need are not the things we want. Truthfully, I am a coward. Too frightened to say goodbye. So I write, in hopes that one day they will read this chapter and recall a girl like me ever existed. The words do not come easily, but I will try my very best.
This journal was created due to the experiences I had with Wolf. Writing it all down assisted me immensely, however this can no longer be continued. Why, you ask? Because there are no more experiences to be had. Me and him, we must go our seperate ways. Although painful, it will be for the best. I hope that they may one day forgive me, however that is but a dream. He has moved on, and I feel I must as well. I cannot hold on to something long broken. Something I ruined. Nothing would ever be the same if I were to stay or leave. The relationship we had prior cannot be recovered, and I understand that now. I cannot remain in a place I do not belong in. Forgive me, I hope you can. This pains me. But you no longer need me. That is understandable. I will no longer pester you.
Although no words were exchanged between us these past few days, I felt there wasn't a need for them. We communicated just perfectly, and I understood your feelings. This is not your fault, we all do it unconsciously. We begin to drift away from those we once depended on. It's alright. I'm sure there will be someone better and stronger than me in your life. I wish you nothing but the best. Forgive me for making this more difficult than it has to be. But goodbye will forever be the most painful words ever exchanged. With that said, goodbye. Goodbye West, thank you for being a wonderful friend. Goodbye Toby, your kindness and beautiful heart never failed to touch me. And goodbye Wolf. Although you seemed frightening, all you ever needed was someone to tell you that you weren't. I'm sorry I couldn't be the one. Although I accepted you as who you are, and tried to love you, some things never work out in the end. It was my fault. You are amazing, all of you. I just couldn't live up to the standard.
With much love, Rose.
l will always love you.
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The journal of odd occurences
Non-FictionI have created this journal due to recent occurences. I will record all that I see, hear, and feel. Nevertheless, this will be my only comfort through the coming days. I do not know why these have come to occur, or how. But I am looking to find out.
