I'm so sick of having to reach out to people.
It's getting old.
If you're my friend, why don't you reach out to me?
Friendships involve two people.
Why does it never feel like it?
I feel like I always put in more work than the other person.
Like I care more about them then they care about me.
Listen.
I admit that I'm bad at texting.
I don't really text people cause I don't really like it.
It's a lot easier to have a good conversation in person or on a call. And even then I'm super awkward and it's hard to get over that.
But once I do, I feel like I can have good and meaningful conversations. Anyway, that's why I end up never texting people.
I kinda feel bad about it.
But I just don't like it.
But texting is not the only form of communication.
People don't call me.
People don't say hi to me.
People don't initiate conversations with me.
I'm the one who has to do these things.
I'm the one who's supposed to start things.
Why?
Why can't they?
I don't understand.
If you want to talk to me, just fucking ask.
If you want to hangout, ask.
But they probably don't want to do that.
That's what I think when people don't reach out to me.
They probably hate me and find me annoying.
Or they don't care as much as I thought they did.
I need friends who care about me enough to reach out to me.
Why is that so hard to find?
And it's not that I don't love the friends I have.
I just want them to show they actually care.
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