Why am I always so broken and sad right after having sleepovers?
Today I am just so angry
So sad
So lonely
So broken
And I don't understand why
Why do I feel like this?
Why do I feel like everyone hates me and wants me dead?
Why am I so pissed off at everyone?
I hate feeling like this
I hate feeling so out of control and broken
I hate feeling like my friends I have hate me
I hate feeling like all I want is new friends
I have friends
I have really good friends actually
But I long for more
I crave new people
New relationships
Maybe it's cause of my desire to be free
My goal in life is to achieve absolute freedom from real life
That's been my goal for years
It's all I want
I want to be able to go new places whenever I want and meet new people
I want to have the freedom of choice
I want no strings attached to anything
I want to be able to gather my things and leave everything behind
That desire comes with the desire for real and genuine relationships
I crave a true connection as much as I crave freedom
Those are the only two things I really really want in life
Money is nice
A good job is ok
Family is meh
A house is cool I guess
But all of that is meaningless compared to freedom and love
I don't give a shit about the material world
Kinda
That's an overexaggeration
I like material things
I like clothes and food and my phone and technology and gifts and books
But they aren't nearly as important as freedom and love
Those are the most important things in life to me
I think that's why I get so sad sometimes
Why I get into a "depressive" episode
I don't get to travel enough or go on adventures
I don't feel like I have enough love and support in my life
That's probably why I'm sad today
I just wish I knew how to feel better
I wish I could go to new places
I wish I could meet new people
But I can't figure out a way to do that
All I want is love and freedom
It's only two things
Why did I choose the two hardest things in life to achieve?
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life sucks sometimes
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