Why does everyone leave?
Why does everyone abandon me?
Listen, I know
I know it's partly my fault
I don't text people
I don't hangout with people
But
They don't do that with me either
They don't text me
They don't ask to hangout
If someone texted me, I'll most likely answer
Is is a good answer that'll start a conversation?
No, probably not
But at least I try
And if someone asked me to hangout
I'll almost always say yes unless I have other plans
And trust me, I try to start it sometimes
Although I'm awkward and anxious, I try sometimes
I text people but they don't answer
I ask people to hangout but they say no
Obviously these could just be mistakes
They forgot about my text
They have other plans
That makes sense
But it's happened too many times to be a coincidence
I think I'm the problem
I mean it's either that or the people I choose to be friends with suck
But how many times can that happen?
It has to be me
All the people that I choose can't be bad
That's just unbelievable
It has to be me
I have to be the problem
Right?
Or maybe just maybe
The world is a random place that doesn't follow the rules of my mind
Maybe I am just picking the wrong people
But I'm also not putting in enough effort
I need to show them that I do care
If they care back
If they match my effort
Then great, we can be friends
If they don't
Then fuck them, who needs them?
If they want to leave
Go ahead
It'll hurt but I'll get over it
It's all going to be ok one day
I'll have true friends who love me
Who I love
Who won't leave
YOU ARE READING
life sucks sometimes
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