Hopeless

Chapter fourty-seven

"Help", he heard Izzy scream. Alec opened his eyes and nervously looked around. What happened? The last thing he remembered was how he went back from the bathroom. Alec slowly lifted his head- he was lying on the floor. He must have just fell over when he arrived from the bathroom. "Oh my god, Alec, are you okay?", Isabelle asked and knelt down next to Alec. "Yeah, I'm good.", he replied. Only now he noticed people gathered around him. "It's fine-", he tried to say but immediately was interrupted by a tall guy:" Sir, may I help you up?" Without waiting for an answer he just picked up Alec and carefully helped him to sit on the sofa." "Here you go.", a lady said and gave him a glass of water. That was the most uncomfortable thing ever. "Thank you, I'm good.", he said and blushed. "You just passed out man, you sure you don't need anything?", another guy asked and Alec just smiled weakly. "Thanks for the concern, it must have been my circulatory messing around.", Alec replied weakly and watched the other customers go back to their seats. "Alec-", Isabelle tried to start but Alec cut her off:" Can we please talk in your car? This is so uncomfortable." "Sure, can you walk?", Isabelle asked. "Yes, I think.", Alec said and slowly but steadily made his way out of the coffee shop, Isabelle close to him in case he might fall. "Alec, you scared the crap out of me?", she said after they finally sat down in her car. "How long was I gone?",he asked, noticing his voice still was shaking. "Not long. Thirty seconds maybe. Anyways, enough to scare the crap out of me." Alec sighed and leant back. He still felt sick but he knew he had to get his shit together. He swore himself he would talk to Magnus tonight. "Alec, you need to talk to me. What is going on?" He sighed. He really tried to avoid this talk. "I have been feeling sort of sick these past days. But I promise I will talk to Magnus later." "Alec, you have to swear to me...", Isabelle begged but Alec took her hand. "I swear " She smiled at him weakly:" I can't go through this again. Alec, I thought I was going to loose you. And that was the worst feeling I have ever had. You have always been there for me and I want to do the same for you. You know you can always talk to me, right?" Alec smiled weakly;" I know, Izzy. And I am so sorry. I am so sorry you had to go through all of this because of me. And I am sorry I made your life so much harder. And I can't burden you and Magnus anymore. I can't be carried on other people's backs for even one more day. I know something is wrong. And I promise, Will get to the bottom of it. I will take care of myself. Remember, your big bro can take care of himself all alone. I need you to focus on yourself for now. Yourself, Simon and the baby. Don't worry about me, I will be good." "Promise? Because what I just saw was really scary.", Isabelle asked with teary eyes. "Promise.", Alec sighed and pulled Isabelle in a hug. And he knew this was a promise he won't necessarily be able to keep. He just needed to know his sister was safe and not worrying about him. "I can do this.", He thought," I just have to push myself a little more. Just another day and then I can talk to Magnus. One day." Then, Isabelle let go of him. "Should I drive you home?", She asked and Alec nodded thankfully:" I think this would be the best idea." Without another word, Isabelle started the engine and drove to Magnus' apartment. It was less than a five minute drive so Alec knew he technically could walk there but he just didn't want to take any chances. And besides that, Izzy probably won't let him walk anyways. He guided her up the staircase and unlocked the door to Magnus' apartment. Thankfully, Alec dropped himself on his bed. With a sigh, he tried to take off his shoes. "You need help?", Isabelle asked but Alec shook his head. He knew he could do this on his own. His feet have been swollen lately, but it wasn't a casual swelling, more like he had water in them. "Your feet look weird.", Isabelle stated and Alec mentally rolled his eyes. Of course she would notice. "No, I just feel like I am gaining weight again.", He lied and put away his shoes. Then he took off his hoodie and laid on his back. The dizziness got better, so did the sickness. "Alec, you really look pale. Should I get you something to drink or to eat?", Isabelle asked but Alec shook his head energetically. His throat was really dry but he was scared that any substance that we would eat or drink would make the sickness come back and he didn't want to risk it. "How has work been?", Izzy asked out if nowhere. Alec smiled. She really was his baby sister. She knew exactly when he was uncomfortable with a topic or just didn't want to talk about something. And she respected that. She hated that he wasn't talking about his problems a lot, but she accepted it. "It's going great, actually.", Alec answered and closed his eyes. He really was tired. In this moment, Izzy's phone vibrated. "It's a message from Simon.", She said, "He wants me to meet him at home. He needs my help with organizing all the diapers we bought." Alec chuckled:" You're gonna be a mom soon!" Izzy smiled in excitement:" I know! But I also am a sister in this very moment so if you don't feel comfortable..." Alec shook his head;" No, it's fine. I will probably just sleep a little anyways. Thank you." She smiled:" I love you big bro." "I love you too.", He whispered and squeezed her hand before he fell asleep.