I fell in love with my bully

Dark past..

*matthews perspective *
Ava smacked me and stood up. I looked at her confused what did I do. " Matthew is that also why you are with me because I remind you of your first love? You don't really love me do you" she said tears streaming down her face. What ? Where did she get that from. " no Ava come here I need I tell you more look sit down and I'll get to the part where I fell for you" she sat down with no words. " alright before Mahogany died me and her got matching tattoos you see. "I pulled up my shirt on the bottom of my stomach there was a tattoo me and her had gotten she nodded " alright so I don't regret it but noticed I was stupid to do it cuz I now forever carry this pain in my chest because this constantly reminds me of it. After mahogany died I couldn't find myself. I left for awhile to California if you don't remember . To get away from everything. I was being followed by Bart and everyone I could get away from them never would it's just not possible. Nash and the other guys ended up quiting . So no one was in Bart's gang anymore so I was free. That's when I noticed that I could be nice to you. But ifk how to start. See I was that kid that used to sleep with all those girls and use them as my "toys" because I tried numbing the pain by sex and it never worked the emptiness was there. I didn't know how to get near you so I was going to use you but I knew I didn't want to the homework was just a excuse to get near you. The kisses I gave you were because I never noticed you cared for me when we were friends I never noticed how wonderful you were how pretty you were I never noticed CUZ I was with Mahogany. I love you Ava trust me I love you. You are slowly making my pain go away " I looked at her she hugged me . She was crying " why are you crying?" I asked her " no one has ever said anything like that" she put her head on my shoulder . " glad to be the first" I hugged her and wiped my tears. " I told you most i my last and it's dark ik but I want you to still accept me" " of course matt " she hugged me and kissed me laying me down.