I fell in love with my bully

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The event was exhausting  all I wanted was to go back to the hotel room and cuddle with Crystal. I rushed back to the room grabbing her a couple snacks from the lobby. I knocked on the door and Crystal opened she hugged me . I kissed the top of her head " hey baby" I said she giggled " Hi loser" I smiled. She took my hand and dragged me to bed " I want you to cuddle me" she said .  I loved laying down with her and just relaxing. We took a nap but got woken up by the loudest most obnoxious knocks I have ever heard. I got up Crystal still in bed. When I opened the door I saw... Ava. " What the hell are you doing here ??" I half whispered half yelled . Ava gently pressed her lips on mine she had been crying I could tell by her eyes. I pushed her away. " what do you need? If you don't need anything please leave . I have better things to be doing. " She stared at me for awhile " like being with her?" She said looking down . " If by her you mean the girl who made me believe in love again and picked up all the pieces you left behind then yes her" I couldn't keep up with her anymore . I couldn't stand her coming and confusing me and leaving whenever she wanted it's pathetic and I won't deny I still love her I always will by god she is carrying my child but I am not with her anymore. " Why her? Matthew why? I love you and you love me .. Or loved  I am not sure anymore " she said a tear rolling down her cheek . " Who is it?" Crystal yelled . " No one important go back to sleep babe" I yelled back .  Ava looked up at me and I could tell she was hurt by the remark I made about her not being important , she didn't say anything though she just turned to leave. " hey baby I will be back quick just wait alright" I yelled back to Crystal. I chased after Ava I made it just in time before the elevator closed . " What do you want Matthew ? Leave me alone, just leave" She was crying  her make up smeared clearly she was hurting and I was part of that pain I was the cause of it , me . " Hey I am sorry for what I said I shouldn't of -" I got cut off " No no shut up Matthew , don't do this now I won't let you , you are right you shouldn't of " The elevator opened and Ava put up her hoodie obviously trying to avoid fans . We went through the back . " Stop following me Matthew " Ava abruptly turned around and hit me I stopped. " what did you need you obviously came here because you needed something" she turned around and kept walking. Why couldn't she just tell me what was wrong she did this all the time. She just avoided it. I grabbed her arm and made her face me " What's wrong , talk to me please" I said wiping some of her tears away . She pushed me " it's nothing I just wasted my time I shouldn't of came in the first place I am sorry " She turned around and started walking again, I didn't follow I stood and watched her . She had a oversized hoodie , actually one of my old favorite hoodies, she had on some black leggings with vans . I observed as she continued walking then she abruptly just screamed and pulled at her hair I was very shocked by this kind of behavior coming from Ava she always tried to keep it under control never acting crazy or wild. I ran to her she was crying really hard now shaking even . " What is happening Ava? Please stop crying" I said grabbing her arms she was crying so hard shaking her knees gave up on her and she collapsed but I had her. I knelt down with her I grabbed her face. She looked miserable but beautiful all at once , that was Ava beautiful no matter what even with make up coming down her face her hair wet because it was raining out. " Matthew please leave" She said trying to get up but I didn't let her she had to tell me what was going on . I still cared no matter what happened I would always care. " Nothing" she barely even whispered it and looked down . I cupped her face with my hands like I used to . " Ava please tell me" She pushed my hands off of her and stood up , strength I didn't know she had , it surprised me . " Matt I lost you , you no longer love me I feel it , it's hopeless I am carrying a baby of a man that doesn't love me , I miss you so much and I don't know if I'm crazy or what but I can't deal with all this sadness I love you I was stupid and thought I would never lose you but I did she came into your life and I lost you . I lost you . I hate myself for it I know it sounds stupid but I need you to leave I can't anymore . I want you to forget about me and I want to forget about you and I know it'll be hard but it has to be done" I stared at her as she was saying this crying , miserable. I didn't know what to say but I felt so bad because this was because of me . I stood up " Ava I still love you okay I still do and I won't forget you ever , I won't leave you alone. You carry my child . My child and I will be here for him or her I will be here . I am sorry you feel this way but Crystal is my life I love her"  Ava started crying harder " See you love her , you love her , not me . I love you and only you and I cant anymore . Bye" She said running to her car I caught up before she opened it I hugged her. Her embrace brought this warmth I can't explain all through out my body I knew I loved her , I never stopped. I cupped her hands " I love you , you hear I love you . I have always loved you , will always love you . Don't go okay , don't push yourself away from me . Don't push our child away from me. I need to clear my head but if one thing I am sure right now is that I love you . There is no doubt I love you." I looked into her eyes and I knew she believed me and I knew the feeling was mutual I felt her embrace me without really embracing me and I've never felt so secure. I saw some people come around the corner , fans , I could tell by there phones being out. Ava followed my gaze. " I have to go , I love you bye" She said  I kissed her forehead and nodded " I love you too" She got into her car and drove off. I know this would bring hell , but she made me feel like it was all worth it , she was worth everything.

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So I updated this bihh!!! I hope you guys enjoy . I love you. What does this mean for Ava and Matt?!?!?!