I fell in love with my bully

Hospital

* Carter's perspective *

Right now I am at the hospital with the rest of the guys all torn. Matthew tried taking his life and only left a letter. We didn't know he would try taking his life not because of Ava . His letter made us all understand that Matthew was never perfect and always felt preassured. I had his letter with me at all times. I read it over and over again.

Dear family,

I am sorry guys I couldn't do this anymore. When Ava left I felt like someone jsut stabbed me and just I felt so much pain. I don't want a world withoug Ava . Carter more than anyone knows how much I love her he knows I love her more than myself. No one ever got me not even you guys. You never understood why I loved her. Since we came to Cali I felt like all of you depended on me and wanted me to do everything wrong . I never told Ava about how we had to go back to our gang but then when they finally stopped following us she left. I didn''t want her to leave. I am sorry for letting everyone down. I love you guys so much and I can't thank you enough for being there for me . I am sorry I didn't say good bye in person . I hope you guys understand  I wasn't happy anymore. 

love, Matt

A tear rolled down my cheek as I read it one more time and just each time I read it I realized more stuff. Cam came over and hugged me " its going to okay bud hang in there you know he'll wake up sooner or later." I let out a weak smile " of course he will he's the Matt Espinosa." I then stood up to go visit Matt. I walked into the room. I sat right next to him and held his hand. tears rolling down my cheek " Matt why did you do this you have a whole life ahead of you , you could have done it . I know you were meant to be somebody you have to just wake up and start over without Ava Matt you and me know you can do it push Matt. Go towards my voice !! Goddammit Matt go towards my voice! Wake up now matt now please wake up. " I yelled getting fusterated . I finally took a deep breath and hugged Matt and cried awhile there then I felt him move. I looked up Matt was smiling. " you son of a bitch, you woke up" I said smiling . I ran outside " He woke up guys he's awake out Matt is awake hurry hurry" As soon as i said that they all came bolting in Matt stared at us with a smile on his face the biggest smile ever. " how you doing babe" I said smiling wiping my tears I was so happy. " fine I am sorry" Matt said and looked down his smile faded " Hey you have nothing to be sorry about bro glad you finally opened those nice hazel eyes of yours" Taylor smiled. " haha I missed your cocky voice" Matthew laughed. " wow but all of you look miserable like ewww" he joked around as we all had red eyes our hair was a mess . " hey!" we all yelled. Suddenly the doctors rushed in . " All of you may not be in here and we have to do studies on him so all of you out!" he said pointing at the door. We all obeyed .  We all hugged and just talked about how we knew he would wake up. Awhile later the doctor came out with an answer of " when can he come home".  " matthew espinosa family" he called out but he obviously knew it was us we walked up to him . " he looks healthy I think you will be able to take him home at around 6 today" he smiled and left. we all shouted and group hugged. 

* Matt's perspective *

The last thing I heard from Carter when I wke up was Matt wake up. All of a sudden my eyes flashed open and saw Carter  hugging me crying. It took me awhile to see him since when I woke up my vision was blurry. I tried moving my arm to comfort him but he had a mini heart attack and ran to tell everyone. They all rushed in . Wow I missed them but then I felt guily because of why they were here.. for me. I still wish I would have died but I heard every single word Carter said ot me and I woke up. Woke up because I want to change the world and make people smile and help them trough times like this. 

* at six*

All of the boys rushed in my room at six I looked at them confused. " what do you guys want I was thinking" I said upset since I was thinking about my Ava. " you are going to get to go home with us now"  they all shouted then looked at eachther and laughed. " yay lets go" I said they unhooked me and I got to ride a wheel chair for the first time in my life. The car ride to our house was all cheering all of us turning up. when we arrived at our house I smiled I missed the feeling of being at home. " hey guys I want to go out tonight." I said out of no where but it was true I missed bieng out . " where" cam said. " umm mall, movies , mm food of course, and then park" I said they looked at me confused but all nodded " well what are we waiting for lets fo get fresh" Aaron said trying to soud like Taylor we al laughed I walked into my room. It was exactly how I left it . I walked over to my closet . I picked out a dimond sweatshirt some khakis and some vans and put my hair up. I didn't feel like showering I know eww. But I knew none of the other guys would eathier. I put some deoderant on and colonge. I looked at the room and then pictured Ava sleepigng on my bed and a tear rolled down my cheek I wiped it off and walked out of my room. Everyone was ready except of course Taylor! He took the longest time. " TAYLOR GET OUT HERE YOU JEWW" I yelled and about three minutes later Tay came running out " I am fresh and ready to go bruh" we all laughed and walked over to the car. I stared as we past landmarks wow it felt so diffrent. 

~ here is my first chapter of my squel to I fell in love with my bully I will post when ever I can I m done for tonight peace love you all.