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I didn't go straight to the hotel room because I had to gather my thoughts. I love them . Crystal and Ava I loved them . I couldn't just pick one they are my life . After Mahogany only they made me feel and I don't know what to do . I went up to our room . As I got close to our door I could hear Crystal crying and Cam's girlfriend trying to calm her. She must have seen pictures heard about it , I took a deep breath and opened the door. They both looked up then Cam's girlfriend left . Crystal looked at me once then looked down . I didn't know what to say , asking what was wrong would be very hypocritical of me . I stood there still for awhile not saying anything she not saying anything neither just sobbing. There were so many thoughts going through my head but I knew I loved Ava. " You said it was no one important Matthew" Crystal said looking up at me disgust written all over her face. I looked down  " I am sorry" was all I managed to say . I know it's stupid I should've said way more then just that but I didn't and I don't know why. " So what now?, everyone is talking about this Matthew , it's all over social media , why would you do this to me? It's so humiliating what is your problem??"  Of course I already knew this I had been scrolling and checking it out . " I know and I'm sorry . Ava was hurting . She needed me" I said as I walked over to Crystal. " No don't even get close to me , I don't want you if anyone can have you as long as they are " hurting "  Matt. " I looked down , I did stop dead in my tracks . I didn't have anything to say . It was her right to be mad , I would be too. " I'm sorry Crystal , I love her . I really truly love Ava.. " Crystals face was taken over with hurt. She didn't say anything she just kind of sat there looking into my eyes all broken . It was as if she stared deep into my eyes I would change my mind or maybe she could find the will to turn her hurt into hate.  She finally looked down at her hands that were on her lap. She sighed and just stood up . She walked over to her suit case and started putting her stuff in it a tear rolled down her cheek and she quickly but aggressively wiped it off . Maybe she has found the will to hate me. I just stood there numb staring at her pack away her things.  " Crystal , I will always be here for you  and our child . You guys won't be alone . I am sorry for this I truly am. But I love her , I hope you understand. " I said quietly but I knew she could hear me.  " I am fine don't worry about it . Forget  our child though , forget me most of all . I will leave as soon as the next plane leaves . "  Her face was blank . I was trying to read her but I couldn't . That was the thing with her she was unreadable and it was so dangerous and terrifying. "You aren't going to separate me from my child .  Please don't . I am sorry we didn't work out but I need you in y life still. " I raised my voice I couldn't imagine not seeing my child.  " Okay I won't. You're right it isn't the child's fault  we didn't work out. You'll see him or her." She nodded " I will take care of the child financially too. I am sorry for everything and I hope you know I did love you I really did ." She looked up at me and laughed a little " You know how I feel about people loving more than one person but okay I loved you too. It will be a little awkward if we both stay here until I catch my flight so how is this going to work out?" I chuckled she was always worried about her being awkward and it was funny and so cute so so cute . " Well could we cuddle and watch American Horror Story one last time?" She smiled " It would be my pleasure" . We only got to watch two episodes of American Horror story before she had to leave. We embraced each other one last time and it was great . The last words she said to me were " You have my number take care , I'm sorry we didn't work out but I still love you.Later" , I felt so good knowing that she was taking it so well I hope it will stay like this . I am also happy because now I can be with my Ava . It was my second chance at love..

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Lol I feel like you guys just hate this now but umm I am feeling like writing I am feeling broken and beautiful things can be created while broken.  

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