forgotten - lazarbeam

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lannan's pov

i couldn't stop thinking about how (y/n) and i almost kissed.

why did we have to be interrupted like that? i really like her. like, a lot. but we've been friends forever and i wouldn't want to possibly ruin our friendship by telling her how i feel.

as i was editing the video we filmed together, i couldn't stop looking at her; her radiant smile, cute dimples, shiny hair. i couldn't believe that this amazing girl had been right infront of me all this time.

it took me much longer than normal to edit this video. i kept getting distracted by her; her laugh was infectious.

eventually, i finished editing it all together into a 15 minute video and hit upload. while i waited for it to post, i checked my phone for the first time for a few hours.

02:56am

as i read the time, i noticed i had some text messages.

11:32pm
from (y/n) - hey lannan :) can i call you? or do you want to go for a walk?

11:57pm
from (y/n) - i really need to talk to you, are you okay?

00:13am
from (y/n) - hello? lannan?

00:14am
from (y/n) - sorry if this sounds quite desperate, but if you're not free or asleep or something, i get it

00:58am
from (y/n) - okay, well it's getting late, so, goodnight lannan x

shit. i had my phone on silent. i should've checked it earlier. i decided to text back, hoping that she would still be awake or hear it go off, but with very little hope.

hey (y/n), sorry, my phone was on silent. i'm here if you need to still talk to me about it okay? if you're awake? x

i hit send and stared at our messages, waiting for a reply.

nothing.

as time passed and no message was sent, i realised i blew it. didn't help her when she needed it. i kept staring at the screen just waiting, as my eyes started to feel heavy, and i dropped off to sleep.