Flashback
"We're here!" I squealed holding Michaels hand. "Just think, tomorrow we'll be husband and wife." He said smiling big. "Save the lovey dovey shit for tomorrow." Wesley said laughing. "Let them be Wes!" Ally laughed. "You want to know what I'm actually mad about." Ally said crossing her arms. "What?" I asked. "That your 5 months pregnant and you're barely showing." She said. I laughed. "I feel fat." I sighed smiling. "You don't look it at all." Michael said. "Thanks baby."
"I need a nap Michael." I yawned as we unpacked in our room. "Take a nap baby. I need one too." He yawned. He got up shutting the curtains and turning the fan on. He got in bed with me, pulling me close. "Michael I can't sleep like that anymore." I whined. "I just want some us time." He said. I sighed, I sat up straddling him. He rubbed his hands across my belly. "I'm so excited to be a dad." He smiled. "I'm kind of scared." I replied. "Well I am too but I'm excited." He smiled. "You're going to be the best mom." He smiled. "You think so?" I asked hopefully. "No.... I know so." He smiled.
"The best mom in the whole world." He added. I couldn't help but smile. I leaned my forehead on his. "I love you." I told him.
Present
4 days we've been here. Michael hasn't moved or anything. The doctors keep telling me everyday he's showing progress. It's just not like him, seeing him lay there, not moving. Michael is a talker so he usually just babbles on and on. But he is silent and motionless. I can't handle it. I've sat jay up on his bed everyday to talk to him. Nurses come in quite often to check on Michael and I think they come in to check on me too honestly. They love Jay too. They come in, change his IVs, move him around so he doesn't get bed sores.
"He what? He made you dinner and had candles and everything?" The one nurse said as I told her about how Michael was my first. She couldn't believe how sweet he is. "He's always treated me like a princess." I smiled. "What was his proposal like?" They asked eager. "Perfect. It was just us, we camped out on the beach where we had our first kiss. We sat at the fire and we started talking about marriage then he just did it." I smiled then the tears came. "We're sorry, we don't mean to upset you." One of the nurses said sympathetically. "I like talking about the good times. I'm just scared there won't be anymore." I replied. "We're praying for you guys everyday that he comes out okay," one said as she held Jay. I nodded.
It was just Jay and I. He held Michaels hand and talked to him. "Say dada." I told him. "Dadadada!" He smiled then Michaels hand twitched. "Keep talking to daddy! Say dada!" I said eager. I pressed the button for the nurse. Jay kept babbling dada. 10 minutes passed and a nurse came in, one we haven't met yet. "Is everything alright?" She asked politely. "I'm his hand twitches, that's a good sign right?" I asked eager. She approached his bed side, looking at his monitors. "Was it just once?" She asked. "Yes ma'am." I said. "I mean it can be a good sign but sometimes if could be just their nerves. We'll just keep an eye on his movement. See if we see an increase of it." She smiled. I sat back down disappointed. I feel helpless, empty and just scared.
"Hey," Wesley said coming in. "Hey," I smiled softly. "We're going to take Jay for the night." He said. "Thank you guys so much." I said. "Anything for you guys. Have you had anyone search the house yet?" He asked. I shook my head. "I'm off tomorrow. You want me to drop jay off with you and go check?" He asked. "Will you please?" I asked wiping my tears. "I need his phone too." I said. "Okay, come here little man." He said getting Jay. "Give daddy a kiss real quick." I said holding jay over Michael, jay kissed Michaels cheek then gave me a kiss. Wesley hugged me tight, "we got you, okay? Everything is going to be okay." He said then leaving.
His hand twitched a couple more times through the night as I talked to him. "I can't do this without you." I told him. His hand squeezed mine. I knew that was him, I'm not telling the nurse though, I just couldn't bare being told it was just nerves. He's been more active today. It's him. He's responding. "We're here baby, we're not mad. We just want you better. Jay needs his daddy." I said. "Hey," one of the nurses said. "Hey," I said. "I guess handsome boy went home?" She asked. I nodded. "Dang it." "Guess you guy stuck with night shift?" I asked. She nodded. "You know I never got your name or the other nurses name," I said embarrassed. "I'm Kim and that's Christine." She smiled. She started writing down his vitals and check his other stuff. "Any news," she asked. "His hand has been moving a lot." I said. "What? Really?" She gasped. I nodded. "But the other nurse said it's just nerves." I sighed. "Is it the same hand?" She asked. I nodded. "It's him, if it's just nerves it would be the same hand and body part. He knows you're here. He just needs more time to rest." She said. "You always make me feel better." I smiled. "He just did it again!" I said. "He's been doing it a lot tonight." I said hopeful. "Alright mr. Jackson let's get the rest of you moving. Your wife is driving herself crazy." She jokingly said making me laugh. "What treatment plans do you have set up for him?" She asked. I shrugged. "His therapist and I are talking tomorrow about it. Last time he did a year long one. But we can't do that with Jay." I sighed. "Yeah that'd be hard," she agreed.
"He squeezed you're hand?!" Angel gasped. I nodded, "one nurse told me it could just be his nerves but he keeps doing it. I think it's him. He just needs rest. We have a long road ahead of us." I sighed as she walked me down the hallway to dr. Taylor.
" Audrey, hows everything?" Dr Taylor greeted as we entered the office. "Could be better." I replied. She signaled for me to sit.
"So what we need to discuss is what you have in mind for treatment for him," she sighed
I shrugged, "maybe try a 6 month program. A year is too long, with us having Jay, he'll miss too much." I said "We can do that, I was thinking the same. What are we going to do if he refuses treatment?" She asked. "He won't, he's going through treatment." I said like it wasn't an option. "Dre, we can't force him to get help. What is your plan if he tells you he's not going through treatment. We need to be prepared." She said seriously.
"He's not coming home to us if he doesn't get help." I stated. She nodded. "I can't put Jay in that position. It isn't safe." I said with tears. Angel rubbed my back, "I'd say the same thing. It isn't just you two anymore." Angel said. "We will start getting everything ready for him. It's going to be a little different this time around. With you guys being married and having Jay you'll get more visitation the first 3 months then the last three you can visit everyday. We're going to try to make this easy as possible but still get the help he needs." She said.
I say next to his bed, thinking. What if he does refuse help. We have no idea where his mind is. "Come on asshole. Wake up." I told him. "Knock knock!" Kim said happily as she brought in Jay. "Look who I found in the hallway." She smiled. "Mama!" He smiled. She handed him to me as he kicked his feet excited to see me. "Dada!" He squealed. I sat on Michael bed, sitting Jay near Michaels head. "Dadadada!" He said grabbing at Michael. "He's such a happy baby," Kim smiled. "I know. He only cries if he doesn't feel good or if he has a poopy diaper." I said.
Wesley finally made his way into the room. He hugged me and gave me a kiss on the head. "How's he doing?" He asked. "I don't know." I said. "I went to the house this morning. Ally watched him while I was gone." He said. "What did you find. "He had it hidden under the bottom draw of his dresser. I had to pull the entire thing out. And he is his phone." He said handing it to me. I grabbed Michael hand using his thumb print unlocking his phone. "Fucking Dylan again!" I said pissed looking through it. I pressed call, listening to it ring. "Hey Mike, what's up man?" Dylan answered. "Listen here asshole, stop selling my husband fucking drugs! If he dies, we're coming after you. You better pray he wakes up cause if he doesn't, You're getting a murder charge." I said hanging up. "Calm down." Wes said hugging me. "Why are we going through this again, I feel like I'm reliving our past?!" I said getting mad. "You have every right to be mad." Kim said. "Why can't he just stay off the shit!" I cried throwing his phone on the ground breaking it. "You know what, we're gonna move! We're gonna move across the country away from it!" I said. "Just take a breath. Don't make any set plans till he wakes up, okay? This is hard on you and you're not thinking straight." Wesley said. I nodded as I just hugged him.
Wesley day with Jay and I for a while. "You're neighbor, she fucking mosey." Wesley spoke. "Don't get me started. The bitch is in love with Michael." I giggled. " where's Michael? Is he okay? Was there an accident? When's he coming home?" Wesley said in a mocking tone. "Almost told her the truth, shut her up." He sighed. "Will you come back tomorrow? If you gotta work that's fine. I just get lonely." I said. "Of course." He smiled. "Leelee!" Jay said looking at Wesley. "I guess that's one way to say my name," he laughed. "What's up little man?" He asked. Jay just baby talked, making us laugh. "When are you and ally going to have one?" I asked. "Soon, we're trying now. Shit she might be pregnant now. I got them strong swimmers." He smiled big. "Ew Wes. TMI." I laughed.
"You think he's gonna want help?" Wesley asked as he got ready to leave. "Yeah, he'll do it for us," I said. "What happened last time he went into treatment?" He asked seriously. I looked at him confused. "You left. And that tore him apart." He said. "Wesley I wouldn't leave him! He's my husband! Through sickness and health. I meant my vows." I stated offended. "I believe you but will he? We don't know where his mind will be. Just prepare yourself for that out come." He said taking Jay. "I didn't think about that." I said softly. "I'll go with you to talk to Dr. Taylor. Maybe i can help with a solution." He said. I nodded and gave him a big hug.
