In A Heartbeat

Chapter 19

After today's classes were over I went home immediately leaving Andrea behind I was so tired and stressed out that all I wanted to do was to lay on my bed and cuddle up to my pillow.

When I got home I saw that Mom is at home which is very unusual because she is always busy but I decided to ignore her am still annoyed about their divorce I guess I blame her for the divorce now I don't have a father.

"Ashley." Mom calls out but I didn't answer.

"Ashley." She calls out again.

"Not now mom." I say going to the fridge to get some ice cream.

Now mom is in the kitchen but I completely ignore her I know its not only her fault and it takes two to tango but I can't help taking my anger on her.

"Ashley talk to me."Mom says holding my free hand.

" Mom there nothing to talk about you've clearly made your decision you didn't even think about how this would affect me do you even love me? I doubt that since you never cared for anyone not me or even dad all you care about is your job." I take a deep breath." So tell me mother what should we talk about."

She released my hand take a look at me and leave, I stare at her in disbelief after all I said she just walk out why is my life so difficult.

I decided to sit in the sitting room to watch a movie while taking my ice cream but as I flip through the channels they are all romantic movies which is the last thing I need now since am reminded of Cole by it I give up covering the remaining ice cream and putting it in the fridge with that done I go to my room I remove my cloth and change to my comfortable baggy T-shirt and my dad's short I lay down on my bed and sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night sweating and out of breath I just had a horrible nightmare I check the time on my clock and it says 3am, I don't think I would fall asleep any moment from now.

Getting up from my bed I decided to go down into the kitchen, pouring myself a glass of water I drink it up at once allowing myself to take a deep breath, just as am thinking of going to back to my room I hear a loud crash I jump back in fear taking conscious steps to the sitting area where the crash came from I go over to where the switch is and I switch the light on.

I freeze at the sight before me its like I can't recognize the person sprawled on the floor right now, it takes a moment to register the thought of my mother here in the middle of the night dead drunk and to top it all smoking. The crash was as a result of one of the drinks falling off she did not notice my presence or was too drunk to,alcoholic drinks were scattered everywhere and I cringe at the smell of smoke coming from the cigarette.

"Mom?" I move over to where she lay and put my hand on her lap and she flings my hand away, I put my hand on her head and she screams at me.

"Don't touch me."She screams coldly.

"Mom,what's wrong." I ask taking my hands off her,am really worried the way she is acting.

She laughs coldly taking a gulp from her drink she looks at me and laughs again.

"What's wrong dear? Nothing, I just decided to stop caring." I suddenly remembered what I said to her in the yesterday and I started feeling guilty.

"Mom am sorry I didn't mean it like that." Seeing my mother like this all because of me is tearing me apart and I start to cry.

"Sorry?" She drinks from her bottle again and continues." You are not sorry at all I know you think all this is my fault and you support your Dad like he his a saint you know nothing and you have no right to treat me like this." She pushes me away and I fell on the broken glasses that crashed earlier.