sunflower 🌻, johnjae [ ✔ ]

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<jungy00noh>

today at;
23:04

jaehyun oh my FUCKING god.

What is it Doyoung?

so you know how i'm like starting to get really really
close to johnny nowadays and stuff?

Yes?

okay well, he just sent me a selfie like-
a minute ago. i'm freaking out.
what should i do?

Why are you freaking out?

because- johnny's such an-
attractive man, oh my god.
he's a literal angel, i'll cry.

You're overreacting.

no i'm not i'm deadass serious.
he's so pretty. reminds me of flowers.

Do you like him?

yes.
but like not in that way, lmao.
he's super nice and good-looking
though, just saying.
still find it crazy how you haven't fallen
for him yet.

Out of the entire time I've talked with him
these past couple months, I never asked for
a photo because no matter what he looks like
it won't change the way I feel about him.

damn.
jaehyun, i love you, you're a real one.
but you never gave the a kid a chance.

I don't need to.
I'm simply not attracted to him.
And giving him false hope is an
obvious no. I've been trying to let
him down slowly and kindly.

and here i thought we were similar in standards.

You're attracted to him?

of course i am.

Then why don't you go after him?
Why do you keep insisting on me
to converse with him, when I've
already stated that I am simply
not interested?

...
i don't know.
because he likes you.
and i don't like him that much.
in that way, in a romantic way..
i just said i was attracted to him
nothing more.
online dating isn't my cup of tea
as well so.

Doyoung.
I've talked and talked with him,
nothing seems to be changing.
Just the same boring old and bland
conversations that we have at midnight
every single day.
What do you want me to do?

......how would i know?
i'm not him. i don't know what he desires most.
i just really want to see him happy, that's all.
and even if it doesn't seem like it, his joy sparks
from you. you make him happy. not me. not music.
it's you, jaehyun.

I never asked to make him happy
though, Doyoung. I hate to say it
but it's such a burden to have to
talk to some stranger everyday.

i know that, and that's the problem here.
you never asked to make him happy, neither
did he ask for you to make him happy...
i'm trying to make him happy but i'm not you|
i'm trying to make you happy but i|
i'm trying to make y|
i'm trying t|
i'm |
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here you are, strolling freely and carelessly in
a field of sunflowers. you have nothing to worry
about. but then there's people like johnny. who's lost
in the middle of the field, blinded by bees, yellow and
thorns. the sunflowers have started to wither because
that's how long he's been stuck there.
jaehyun, you need to understand him to be able to
sympathise with him. you clearly don't do that.
i get that you've become arrogated by his presence
every morning and night, but please, do think
about what he's going through.
you don't know how many times i've tried to suppress
my empathetic cries for him whenever he's broken
down during a call. it's so heartbreaking, jaehyun.
his faint cries while i try to calm him down at the
crack of dawn really toys with my heart.
and this is all because of the thought of you.
so please, i really need you to care, like i do.
he's slowly drowning himself in his own tears
and i don't want to witness it.
seen

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