So, it's been a few months since I last wrote in this. I am sorry about that, but a lot has happened over the course of the last few months.
A lot has happened inside my church. Attendance has been low. Our wonderful pastors have all resigned due to incidents. It's not good. The student ministries are fine, but because the adult ministry is messed up right now, it affects everyone. I'm so angry at the church, but I love the high school ministry with all my heart, so I'm trying to look in the positive side of everything. If it isn't too much of a bother, I would really appreciate prayers for this anger and I pray that God will help me forgive the church's actions.
I just came back from my church's winter retreat. If I had to describe the word I've felt this whole week after is peace. Obviously the week had its ups and downs, but in the downs I definitely relied on God more than I used too. My life got so busy that I didn't realize how much I was pushing Him aside, which was so wrong of me. God comes first.
What I'm doing now is making more time for Him. Every school day, I wake up at around 5:30am (I know, that's ridiculous). I lay in bed until 6:20am, but during that time, I have been doing devotionals. I use the Bible app and do one devotional every morning. It's a way to get ready for the day. I also have a separate journal where every day, I journal how "today is going to be a good day and here's why" inspired by Dear Evan Hansen. It's a good thing, and forces me to think on the positive side. Not on the tests I dread on that day, but rather things I can look forward to.
Every night before I go to bed, I journal about the day. I go over what I did, talk a little how I'm feeling, and incorporate how I saw God working on that day. Most days I don't feel much because usually it's a boring day, but I make a point of noticing it whenever I do.
Journaling really helps. If you feel like you're struggling in your relationship with God, one thing I recommend is making more time for Him. I don't want to let this peaceful feeling I felt during my church retreat so I am determined to hold onto it.
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