I Heard Goodbye

14

Dylan's PoV

Natatakot akong sabihin sa kanya ang lahat. The facts I have about Crystal may pull her final string. Natatakot ako.

"She's... an old friend"

"Friend? Wow pwede na pala ilips to lips ang friend"

"I mean. We had a thing. Fling lang ganun. No feelings involved"

I lied.

No feelings involved. Totoo yon. Si Dy lang talaga laman ng puso ko. Kahit hindi ko siya mahanap noon.

Pero... Crystal. There was a time na nalasing ako. I was desperate to look for Dy... parang nagkaroon lang ako bigla ng flashback sa lahat ng pangako ko na hindi ko pa rin matupad tupad.

Crystal... she approached me. She talked to me. Made me feel at ease at that time. Sa sobrang pagkkwentuhan h-hindi ko na namalayan ang dami ng nainom ko. Until the next morning I saw both of us inside a room. Naked.

Wala akong maalala. Hanggang ngayon wala akong maalalang nangyare, but she kept insisting that something happened. Umalis ako. Even in that moment I felt na nagtaksil ako. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko ginusto. Pero Crystal followed me everywhere I go.

Nainis ako. Pero she told me she'd stop if I let her be with me. Pinabayaan ko. Hindi ko naman siya gusto. Until time went by, naging kaibigan na rin siya saken. When it was time for me to leave that place we agreed with each other to be ex-friends. No strings attached. No feelings involved. Wala. And I don't know what's gotten into her when she kissed me after she saw me again.

Now tell me... how can I tell her that? Na sa sobrang longing ko kay Dy, may naikama akong iba? Putangina. Bakit ba bumalik pa si Crystal??

Dyna's PoV

I feel like something's still not on the surface. May nakatago pa...

"Ilay?"

"Ha?"

"I'd be honest with you..."

"Ano yun?"

"Pakiramdam ko sa sinabi mo hindi lahat totoo"

"Dy..."

"Hay. Hindi mo pa rin ba kayang sabihin saken ang lahat? Hindi mo ba ko kayang pagkatiwalaan man lang?"

"Natatakot ako Dy"

"Natatakot? Na?"

"Na layuan mo ko sa malalaman mo"

"Mas pipiliin ko nang malaman yung totoo kesa nagiging bulag ako sa paligid ko. Kung lalayo man ako Ilay, karapatan ko naman siguro yon? By not telling me things it's like saying I don't have the right to leave... that I don't have the right to judge and feel what I would feel. Napakaselfish mo naman non"

"Dy... hindi ganun. I don't want you to feel that way. It's just-"

"Then tell me!!"

I sighed. Selfish nga masyado na ipagkait ko sa kanya ang totoo.

"Please let me explain everything. At sana tandaan mo na kahit kailan wala akong ibang minahal kundi ikaw lang Dy. Ikaw at ikaw lang"

"Just tell me everything. Please."

"Ok... Crystal and I... we met at a bar. I was so desperate to look for you kahit ang tanging alam ko lang sayo ehh ang palayaw mo. I was so desperate na idinaan ko yung pangungulila ko sayo sa pag-inom"

"Then Crystal came?"

"Yes. She... for what I thought that time... comforted me. Inintindi niya yung mga sinasabi ko. She was there for me to listen. Yun ang akala ko"

"Bakit?"

"Sobra akong nalasing nung gabing yon. The next thing I knew... I... I was beside her naked."

She had no expressions and reactions kaya ipinagpatuloy ko na lang ang pagpapaliwanag.

"I swear I don't remember anything happening kahit na nahimasmasan na ko sa alak. But she... she insisted that something happened. I don't know. I don't know how it happened and all... I'm so sorry... Dyna."

"Then you're telling me earlier na wala lang? Na ex-FRIENDS lang kayo? Ex-Friends with Benefits ba kamo?"

"Coz that's what we agreed before I left her. Na wala nang future involvement. Na ayoko nang magkaugnay pa ulit kami. Pinabayaan ko siya noon na sumama sama saken but I swear I never loved her. Mapilit siyang pumasok sa buhay ko so I just let her to be my friend. Yun lang. Pero at some points she's going overboard with her actions. Kaya nagdecide akong lumayo. And now I don't know what she wants"

"Baka naman nagbunga ginawa niyo?"

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. Is that really the reason why?

But I immediately shook off the thought. Hindi ehh. Hindi talaga.