Billie Eilish X Male OC

"no cuts"

Tw: self harm, suicidal thoughts, blood, stuff like that

Please take care of yourself and if you ever feel sad or alone don't refrain from reaching out to someone, because you matter.

*they're both 16*

Billie had been wearing more watches and braclets than usual, so james asked her about it. "Why do you need 6 diffrent watches?" He said while chuckling lightly. Billie's face turned paler, if that was possible as she chuckled dryly, she rasped "they're all diffrent timezones...?" Although it came out as more of a question. james nodded and billie continued watching american horror story. Her favorite season was coven.

Later that night

Billie took all of her watches and rings off except for the one that james gave her. It was her favorite ring. It was neon green so she would never lose it, she also never took it off.

She thought james was asleep, so she went to her bathroom.

She didn't really use the bathroom. She took out a beaten up box of fresh and shiny razor blades that she hid in a hole the wall of the little closet.

T r i g g e r w a r n i n g

Y o u s u r e ?

A l r i g h t...

She picked one up with her shaky hands. She said she'd stop. She couldn't take it anymore. All of this presure. All eyes on her 24/7. This was the only way she knew how to stop the pain. More pain. Her logic was flawed.

She started crying. Barley any sound was coming out. Not Until she pressed the blade to her small, pale, wrist. She slid it across in one motion. This one wasn't as deep as her others. She hissed in pain as she started crying louder.

James wasn't asleep.

He heard her winces from her room. He walked up to the door and knocked softly, "bil, are you ok?" He asked concern lacing his voice.

"... n-no..." her quivering voice broke as she let out a small whimper, making james come in. His heart dropped when he saw her. She had scars all over her arms where her braclets and watches would've been. The ranged from pink to brown, some of the new ones still bleeding. "What are you doing, love?" He asked his voice raising. He kissed her bleeding wrist.

"Ew.." billie whimpered out. "What's ew is that you're mutilating yourself" he said.

"You used to cut too.." billie said, more tears spilling out of her eyes. "Well i stopped, because of you... i thought that nothing good could ever happen to me, until i met you, then i found a purpose for living.." james said softly, making billie whimper and hide her face in his shoulder, as she sobbed harder.

"Baby... look at me" james said lifting billie's chin up. He kissed her softly, making her calm down. "No cuts... promise?" She shyly nodded as he started cleaning up her cuts. "Use your words, bil" 

Billie whimpered and took her inhaler from the cabinet as she started coughing. She did 4 or 5 puffs before she was able to speak. "P-promise.." billie said softly into his chest. James wrapped her hands around billie. "Up.." she said, looking up at james.

James held on to billie's thighs as she jumped, wrapping her legs around him as he carried her back to bed.

He got down beside her as she cuddled into his side, their legs intertwined. "I love you, billie. Good night baby." James said softly as he kissed her head. "I love you too.. g'night" she said with sleep lacing her voice. They both fell asleep. Billie didn't cut after that.

I'm probably gonna do a chapter about her winning like 6 grammys and finn winning producer of the year.

Stay safe
Take care of yourself
You matter
-Oliver