Billie Eilish X Male OC

that time where james and billie broke up

Bil is 16 and james is 17 in this one

James' pov

It all happened so fast i barely remember why we were arguing.

Something about me, probably.
We never argued about anything serious. This was the first time.

She stormed out of my room and didn't talk to me for a good 2 months. More like a horrible 2 months

I tried to distract myself anyway i could. Music, drawing, i had fallen back into an an habbit that i never suspected i would do again once bil was in my life. "No cuts... promise?"

My dumb ass forgot that i have a bunch of sad songs on my playlist, such as, 'gary come home', a classic, and 'nothing' by bruno major.

'Gary now i know, i was wrong
I messed up and now you're gone'

"Fuck!" I loudly exclaimed, my voice breaking.

My mom walked in, "what's wrong, hun?" She asked concern lacing her voice.

My lip trembled as i stood still in the middle of my dark room as tears welled up in my eyes.

I dropped to the floor amd curled up into the fetal position. Sobs wracked my body as my mom tried to comfort me. it didn't work. Nothing did.

'And now my heart is beating like the saddest metronome"

I fumbled with my inhaler as my mom rubbed my back and 'shh''d me, even though i wasn't saying anything.

"B-bbb'bill and i b-broke u-up"

I sobbed hysterically, i could barley breath.

"What? But i thought you two were so good together" she questioned softly, this made me cry harder.

"Ss-so did i" i said taking a deep breath now that i could.
"Mom?"
She hummed in response
"I kinda wanma be alone right now.. i-if that's okay.."

She nodded solemnly, kissing my forehead.

I climbed into my bed and hessitantly called billie.

Straight to voicemail.

"Umm.. h-hi bil.. i-i called because i-i wanted to apologize.. for everything"

My voice was raspy and soft. It hurt to talk, my throat was completley raw and sore from sobbing so hard.

My breaking voice probably sounded pathetic but i needed to just let her know that i'm sorry.

At the time i knew what i was sorry for but now it's all just a distant, faded, awful memory.

"I-i'm sorry, and that's really all i can say, because i'm probably the last person you'd wanna see right now.

You mean so much to me that i can't put it into words-i-i mean i can barley articulate a sentence but, i just hope you're doing better than i am.

I love you.. bye"

Once i clicked 'end' i ran my fingers through my hair and let out a huff of frustration.

I opened instagram up with shaking fingers.

I hit 'go live'

"Uhh hey everyone." I said defeated. I took a deep breath as i saw that there were about 13,000 people watching me crumble.

"I-i don't really know what to say... but uh- i'm kind of in a rough spot right now."

People filed the chat asking me if i'd seen billie's snapchat story, if i was okay, if billie was okay. I ran my hands across my face,

" i know i look like a.. a fuckin mess.. but i'm not gonna be as active on all my social medias 'n stuff.
Um.. i am having a rather bad time right now and i need to clear my head before i can admit anything to myself or anyone else. So, that's all for now. Love you, bye" i exited out and quickly went to billie's snapchat story.

I clicked hessitantly but my heart broke even more from what i saw.

Bil was crying. Her nose and her eyes were bright red and her cheeks were a lighter pink. Shr had tears streaming down her face as she was having trouble keeping herself together. She blew a kiss to the camera

The caption got me thinking.

'I love you too'

Did she hear my voicemail? No, dumbass, she probably isn't even thinking 'bout you at all. She hates you. You know that, right?

Fuck

To be continued...

This was sad

I'm dead crying to gary come home

Stay safe
Wash your hands
Stay healthy
Take care of yourself
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