i'm sO sorry it took me so long to update this story MSVANAB i've had more motivation for my other story so i'm sorry :(( i've also kinda lost the plot of this story buT IMMA POWER THROUGH AND GET IT DONE !! i hope it'll be okay! i haven't written properly in a while so it might be messy and i hope that's okay!! n e way, season 4 of haikyuu is oUT AND ITS AMAZING!! go watch if u havent already 😌😌
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iwaizumi POV
i'm on my way back to the hospital. i haven't visited in a few weeks. i text hanamaki and matsukawa frantically, completely out of breath from being in such a rush.
i had gotten a call saying oikawa was awake, and so far no permanent or severe damage had been present.
i cant even begin to express how happy i am, i'm finally going to get to hear his stupid voice again and see his stupid smile
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i run into the hospital and through the corridors to where i last remember oikawa being. i can feel my heartbeat in my head, a buzzing in my ears. i cant focus on anything except the fact i'll get to see oikawa again
i slow down as i approach a doctor hovering around the room where oikawa should be, reaching out to tap on his shoulder
"excuse me sir, oikawa tooru is in here.. right?"
"yes, are you here to visit?"
"yes, if that's okay.."
i'm so happy, i can feel a smile starting to creep across my face. the doctor leads me into the room, my heart somehow seeming to race faster when i see oikawa sitting up in his bed, alive
i walk up to his bed, adrenaline and happiness completely engulfing my mind
"oikawa.."
i speak softly, it's like i physically can't say anything that's really on my mind, like the happiness i feel, the relief and the guilt. nothing else will come out
i sit down on the chair beside his bed, his eyes met with mine. i almost feel like crying, it feels like so long since i've seen him, i never thought i'd miss this idiot so much
"i'm sorry, but.. do i know you..?"
i feel my heart sink to my stomach, it feels like the world has just crashed around me. i really think i might cry now
"oikawa, it's me, iwaizumi, don't you remember?"
i bite my lip nervously, staring dead into oikawas eyes. this can't be real right? surely after how many years we've spent together he remembers me..
he turns his head away from me and i almost feel something break inside me
"i'm sorry, but i don't remember you.."
something inside me hopes he's kidding. hopes he'll make some stupid joke but, i've never seen this kind of look on his face. this kind of guilt. i've never seen it before.. i wish i had never had to see it..
i snap my head towards the door quickly as hanamaki and matsukawa burst into the room, hanamakis eyes are slightly red, smiles planted across both their faces
"oikawa, thank god you're okay, we've all been so worried and we were so worried we'd never see you again"
hanamaki speaks frantically, both of the taller men rushing over to the side of the bed, hanamaki reaching down to grab oikawas hand. oikawa hesitantly pulls his hand away and up to his chest. i didn't think my heart could shatter more but i guess i was wrong. i can see hanamaki's eyes sadden as well
"i'm really sorry you guys, but.. who are you? i'm sure we were really good friends but, i really don't know who you are.."
i don't think i can even handle looking at oikawa.. i don't blame him or resent him, but this is just too much for my heart to handle. but i have to pull it together. i cant cry. i cant cry for the sake of hanamaki and matsukawa, and for the sake of oikawa.. he's been through so much.. none of this is his fault
