Being A Marine

PART 19

Part 19

Hey what's up guys!! Long time no see!

I got some great news...

I'm engaged! I got engaged on Jan 20th. 

     Man, now that I am going to tell you guys the story of HOW he proposed, I just realized that I was dressed hella fine on that day. Anyways, on that day we went to deer island. He was going to propose to me then, but he told me he kept psyching himself out. So that night we were just laying down together in his room, having a deep conversation and then the talk of marriage just popped up. Next thing you know, he gets out of bed and walks over to his dresser to pull something out and walks back to the bed. He flips the tiny black box open and pops the question. 

     "Will you marry me?" I was at a lost of words. I was so surprised and i just didn't know how to act. Of course I said yes haha. 

So being engaged is nothing to the marine corps. If you're not actually married, being engaged or having a significant other means nothing. You're technically still single. SO I'm trying to get married ASAP. If course there's no rush but I would like to marry sooner, so that I can be with him sooner. Though marrying sooner doesn't mean we'll be together. Gosh marriage is so complicated.

     Honestly I'm SO ecstatic, like I have no words! I'm mostly more nervous than anything. Marriage is a serious thing, and there's a lot to think about and plan when it comes to this stuff. I nervous because I don't know what to expect. I don't know what do to, I don't know anything. I have never looked into it, thought of it, and I have always talked about marriage as a waste. I have always thought of it as stupid and a negative thing. But ever since i met him, he's changed my mind about everything. Marriage, kids, everything. So I'm excited about this! I really am! But there will always be that part of me that's still hesitant about everything.

     Getting married in the marine corps is really stressful. You get a lot of negative comments, conversations and feedback from a one of people. Which I totally understand because most marriages don't work out. Most people only marry for the money and whatever benefits come along with marriage, and those types of relationships end up with a divorce or some other serious matter in the end. So you hear a ton a shît about it. Obviously I'm not about that and I try my best to tune everything out. 

     When I broke the news to my shop (work place), mostly everyone was happy, jealous, and excited for me. The only people who weren't were my Gunnery sergeants.

     They kept saying oh you don't love him, you don't know what love is, it's not love it's lust, and the thing that hurt me most was when they said it wasn't going to work out, especially when it is long distance. They even shit on the fact that I got a diamond ring and that's not a "proper jewel".

     In my mind I scoffed so hard and wanted to say so many things to them.

     Like, let's not forget the fact that one of my gunner sergeants marriage is failing.

     And the other gunny got his wife an emerald as a ring or some shit. Whatever who cares. He talked about how basic a diamond ring was and what it was made out of-That it's made out of some lame ass element. Who cares fuck off. I wanted something nice and simple anyways.

     and how are you going to tell me what I feel for him? how are you going to tell me that I don't LOVE him? 

     Anyways, in a few months I will be going back to the states to get married! Wish me luck guys! 

Remember if you have any questions you can always drop a comment below and I will always try my best to answer it. 

-Rodriguez