Mostly Depressing Poetry

Abuse

Warning! This poem talks about abuse, so if that isn't your cup of tea, skip this poem!!!! You've been warned.

Lost love,

Or was it?

Every night I stayed awake,

Wondering when it'd all be over.

The torture I had to endure.

You see,

My ex was not the greatest person in the world,

And honestly I'm ashamed I dated her.

Constant yelling and fighting.

Why was I with her for so long?

Out of the 7 months we were together,

I had only loved her for 2.

After that I saw how she was,

Saw how it wasn't healthy.

But I stayed.

She threatened all the time that if we broke up,

She would kill herself.

Me being a kind human,

I didn't want that to happen,

Not wanting that to weigh on me if she actually did it.

So I stayed.

Time went by,

And I was getting used to being yelled at, blamed, and hit.

Everyday I would go home and not want to go back to school,

Because my home was my safe place.

One day she wanted me to come over to her place.

I really didn't want to,

But she threatened me again,

And then I just figured maybe she'd be different around her parents.

When they were around she was nice-just like when we had first met,

But alone in her room,

It was all the same.

She forced me into stuff I didn't want to do,

The next day at school, I confided in a friend.

She dragged me to the counselor,

Saying all this had to end.

We sat and the 3 of us talked.

The counselor put in a report of the rape and abuse,

Saying I could charge her.

But I didn't want to.

I didn't want to tell my parents,

Cause I just wanted this all to be over.

Told me she'd talk to the other counselor,

Just so they could keep an eye on her.

Cause if she were really suicidal,

Didn't want that to happen.

Two days later I walked up to her.

She was mad at me afterwards.

She hit me a few times,

And I just said "Good Bye"...

As I walked away,

A sudden calm washed over me.

Relieved that I wouldn't be in her grasp anymore.

But that was just the beginning of the end.

A few weeks in,

She was talking about me in social media,

Saying that she missed me,

And where did life go wrong?

She was trying to pull me back in.

Posting pictures and videos about her crying.

After SEVERAL months she finally stopped posting about me,

But then it started again.

But this time it was hate.

My friends would defend me and report her,

Since I had her blocked from everything I ever had her on.

But she would still post about how I was a bitch.

To this day she still talks shit about me,

But I just stopped caring.

I've got better things to do,

I don't need to worry.

Almost a year ago now,

Has passed since I broke up with her,

And life's been treating me better.

God I'm so glad I'm not with her...