Mostly Depressing Poetry

Alone

I sit here in my room,

Wondering where the hell I went wrong.

My best friend has left.

She is gone...

Perhaps I wasn't good enough for her?

The loneliness is eating at my soul,

I see her pass me in the halls,

And I desperately just want to say hi!

I want to strike up a conversation with you,

Almost as if nothing had changed...

But things have changed.

You pushed me out of your life,

But I'm finding it hard to push you out of my mind.

This isn't Facebook...

You can't just "block" me,

And hope I'll forget you existed.

Because at least with Facebook,

I wouldn't have to see you again.

It's kind of funny- in a sad way,

That we share so many classes together,

Yet when we were friends,

We had almost none.

I want nothing more than to be friends with you again.

You made me feel less alone.

The days talking about your boyfriend,

Or talking about pointless things...

All of that has come to an end.

And I'm sad to say,

That I haven't accepted this change yet.

They say high school is where most of your middle school friendships end,

But I was hoping we wouldn't be those types of friends.

I was wrong.

You brought out the best in me,

And I strived to be the best I could be.

You made me want to fix my flaws,

And change my bad habits.

You got me into writing and reading stories,

And even writing poetry...

So I guess I have you to thank,

For helping me become who I am today.

But I still wish I could talk to you...

Tell you about my day...

I wish you could see me grow further,

But I know now that I'm not getting you back...

No matter how much I wish we could rekindle what we once had...