Hate

fourteen

After a few more hours of talking, she had to go home. I decided to stay a little longer, the sky dark and the waves soft. I knew I had to go home at some point but I really didn't want too. I liked it here. It was calming, no one here to bother me or make me eat. It was my escape.

I let out a breath as I glance at my feet, my toes covered in sand. I loved the beach. I would stay here forever if I could. Suddenly a light was on me, causing me to turn around, squinting my eyes.

"Thank goodness! I've been looking everywhere for you!" The light disappears and curly hair meets my vision.

"What are you doing out here?" He asks as he climbs up the rock. I blush, glancing back out at the water.

"It's calming. I like it here." I shrug. He sits by me, glancing at me.

"How long have you been here?" I keep my gaze on the ocean, the boy shifting uncomfortably on the rock.

"Since you guys started looking for me." I say.

"What? Zach that was at two o'clock! It's like 8 now!" I look at my feet, not meeting his gaze.

"I'm sorry." I mumble quietly. He sighs, running his hands through his hair.

"It's okay. I'm not mad. Just worried. You haven't eaten in hours." I could feel the emotions build up at his words.

"I don't want to eat." I say quietly.

"Zach it's not good for you." He argues.

"And what being fat is?" He sighs, shaking his head.

"You're not fat. You're healthy. You need to eat to be healthy. If you don't you could die." My mouth worked quicker than my brain before I could stop myself.

"Would that be so bad?" I don't look at him as a thick silence falls between us.

"Why would you say that?" He asks quietly, his voice thick with emotion. A few tears had escaped my eyes as I avoided looking at him.

"I dunno. It's true." He wipes his eyes, glancing out at the ocean.

"So you're saying that you want to die and that you don't care how much it's gonna hurt Reese? Or your mom? Or even me? You don't care that you leaving is going to crush everyone." I was wiping my eyes as tears continued to spill from my eyes.

"I don't want them to be sad, any of you. I just maybe if I do what the fans say they'll be happy you know?" I sniffle.

"No I don't know. Why would you kill yourself so some idiots can be happy? That's fucking insane! I need you in my life Zach, and call me selfish but I want you here with me. I don't want you to leave me. I love you." I suck in a breath, glancing at the boy.

"Y-you love me?" He nods, turning to me.

"I love you Zach and I want to make you happy again. I want to hear your laugh, I want to see your smile, and the only tears I want to see are from joy. You're beautiful and deserve nothing but happiness." I couldn't help the way my lip wavered, overwhelmed with emotion.

"I'm sorry." I cry, the boy quickly pulling me to his body.

"It's okay, baby you're okay. I've got you." I cry into his chest, the boy pulling me into his lap.

"Shh, Shh you're okay." He says softly, rubbing my back. I continue to cry into his chest, hiccuping quietly.

"Hey you're too beautiful to cry. I want to see you smile." He says softly.

I don't look at him, staying pressed to his chest as I look at the water, hiccuping quietly. He glances down at me, a small smile on his lips.

"I love you." He says, kissing my cheek. I blush,  but don't move.

"I love you." He says again, this time kissing my forehead. My blush deepens as I glance at him.

"I love you." He kisses my other cheek.

"I love you I love you I love you." He hums, kissing all over my face. I burst into giggles, trying to push him away.

"S-stop!" He does, smiling widely at me.

"I love you so much." He says before placing his lips on mine. I kiss back, my eyes slowly closing. He pulls away and I don't open my eyes, I just cuddle up to him.

"I love you too."

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Hiya. Suddenly I have inspiration for this book haha. Enjoy this cute picture of Jonah (: with wdw inactive idk how imma find pics for my books tbh