Sana'y ako na nga....

Chapter 2

Ryu

"I am telling you... I am not gonna give you up!"

Pasigaw na sabi sa akin ng babaeng nasa harap ko.

Poker face na tinitigan ko sya.

"Your words means nothing to me. So what if you're not gonna give me up. I already did. " I'm not usually this rude towards her. I just want to get this over and done with.

Sinenyasan ko ang waiter para kunin ang bill.

"Listen here. You can't do this to me. No one ever dumps me!"

Halos matawa naman ako sa sinabi nya. Napangisi na lang ako.

Exept me, I guess. Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Tinignan ko syang mabuti baka sakaling magbago ang isip ko.

True, she's beautiful and all that. Matalino, sikat, mayaman. Ang pinakasikat na aktress ngayon dito sa Pilipinas. We met a few months ago at one of our company's product launching which she was the endorser. We've been going out for some time now pero walang malinaw na usapan. We're just seeing each other and we both like each other. So maybe she has the right to assume na kami na nga.

"Ano bang nagawa kong mali?" Her voice is already cracking. Darn it! Why can't I feel something? Anything? Sympathy man lang sana, baka sakaling magbago ang isip ko. Pero talagang wala.

Nagkibit balikat ako. I picked up my glass of water ang drink slowly. Frankly speaking, I dont know what to say. She seems perfect... perfect for me. Gossip columns branded us as the power couple. But as time goes by, wala... nawala.

"It's not you... really...."

Nagalit na sya sa sinasabi ko.

"Wala ka bang originality? It's not you but me thing? Ganon?! "

Napailing na lang ako.

"Look April. It's better that we end it now. You can say that you dumped me. For all I care, I just don't want this anymore. You'll get hurt for now, but'll only last for a few days. "

"Ganon na lang yon?" Tumutulo na ang mga luha nya. "So it's true! You're just a stupid bastard that doesn't care about any other feelings but yours! Paano na yung mga pinagsamahan natin? Ibabasura mo na lang ba lahat yon?"

She's getting really loud and emtional. Here we go again. How many more breakups do I have to endure? This is getting lame.

"Just charge it to experience. Maybe someday you'll thank me for being more wiser than you do today."

Parang umusok ang ilong nya sa last statement ko. Yeah, I admit... It's rude.. really rude. Pero poker face pa din ako. I charge it also to experience na wala na akong pakiramdam sa mga ganitong eksena. I'll surely rot in hell...

Galit na galit syang tumayo, kinuha ang baso ng tubig at inihagis ang laman nito sa mukha ko.

I can hear gasps from around us. Pyesta na naman ang mga vloggers. This is going to hit a million views overnight, lucky bastards who doesn't pay royalties and get paid!

Hindi na nakapagsalita si April at nag-walk out na. Kumuha ako ng napkin at pinunasan ko ang mukha ko.

Still, I can't feel anything. No guilt, no nothing. Manhid na talaga ako.

"There she goes.... O ano masaya ka na naman?" Umupo sa harap ko na nakangisi ang pinsan ko. I told him to meet me here, pero doon muna sya sa kabilang table because I have to finish something with April. Hindi ko naman sinabi sa kanya kung ano, but I have a feeling that he already knows.