Teamiplier Imagines

When I Met You (Ethan x Reader)

You're in for a long ride with this one, ladies and gentlemen, so I'm gonna keep this short. I put my entire being into this and I'm incredibly of it.  Happy reading, everyone! (Warning: You may want to have a box of tissues on deck.) Here's the playlist link:  https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0CrYxkHgEJEAb0TsjXUf5q

When you met him, your life was in shambles. It was spiralling out of control and you thought there was no way of escaping it. You saw everything in shades of black and white. No matter where you looked, you couldn't see the colors that once brought you so much joy. You tried everything---therapists, meditation, medication, but, to no avail, you were stuck in what seemed to be an endless circle of bland, lifeless days with no way out.

And then, one day, as if it were magic, your grey world sprang to life as your eyes met his. They were beautiful. A swirling mixture blues, greens, hazels that you'd never be able to erase from your memory. When he approached you from across the room, you were at a loss for words. Had he noticed your staring? What were you going to say? How should you act? The air was knocked out of your lungs as he finally stood before you. The way he looked at you... It was as if you were the only person in the world. Like you were all he could focus on; all he wanted to focus on.

You would give anything to relive that moment. When you first saw him. So you could cherish it; remember every detail. The lighting. His smile. How each hair on his head sprang every which way. His eyes. The freckle on the left side of his chin. Every painting that stood still around you as your head spun. You didn't know how selfish you were. All because you never thought that it could end.

Two months... How has it already been two months? How has it only been two months? He was always there. Since the moment you met him, he was there to comfort you. To hold you. To love you. And then he was just gone. Torn away suddenly and there was nothing you could do about it. Your Ethan... He deserved so much more than this cruel world gave him. It was unfair. Everything about it. He should be here instead of you; that's all you're ever able to think. Who wouldn't?

You absorbed every word he said that night. Something about him was so... Magnetic. You couldn't help it. Your head was in the clouds on your way home. Was this love at first sight? Things like that didn't happen, but for the first time in your life you were beginning to wonder if they did. You shook the thought out of your head. Surely he had someone. How could he not? He was the closest thing to perfection you'd ever come across.

You exchanged numbers and parted ways when the hosts were shooing everyone out of their event. You couldn't decide if texting him would be a good idea or not---you didn't want to annoy him. The last thing you needed was to scare him off before you really got to know him. The drive home was spent fighting an internal debate. Then, it happened. As you turned the key to your apartment, your phone lit up.

Even though he could never answer, you still sent messages to his phone sometimes. Called him just to hear him speak when it went to voicemail. It was therapeutic in some ways. In others, it was unhealthy to be so dependent on a disconnected phone number and you knew that. At least you weren't off making stupid decisions.

Falling into the comfort of drugs, alcohol, and terrible coping habits that so many develop in this situation. It hurt, but if you were numb to that, you'd be numb to those warm feelings you got any time you would think of your happiest times together. How could you betray him like that? By destroying yourself, you knew it could tear up everything else you have left in your life. That was the last thing he would ever have wanted for you.