Greed has taken over my rationality,
Only craving for more of your intimacy
Despair grips me, as I recall I never intended to feel this way
What is it that has come over me?
How intensely this feeling of attraction hits me over and over again
You are starting to frighten me terribly
Do you not know the effect you have on me?
Or are you torturing me on purpose?
You continue to smile at me,
Obnoxious gaze shaking my world apart with a single glance,
Ultimately stealing my heart away from me
Keeping you all to myself is not yet my desire
Even so, I begin to feel the bite of jealousy
Everytime I witness life take more of you away from me
Panic takes over when I think that I might be... um, nevermind
Forgive me if you are able to
Unless you are not wanting to
Cause it is perfectly alright if you refuse to do so
Knots always come undone, no matter how tightly they are tied
I am not used to sharing my thoughts, so at least I tried
Not that it has to matter or anything...
Growing self resentment curdles in my stomach, and I ask myself
Why I cannot calm my frantic heartbeat around your damn self
I am afraid that you will throw me away eventually
To be honest, I convinced myself a long time ago that you would get tired of me
Having such qualms be exposed to you only scares me even more
Maybe I am overthinking this
Yesterday, I could not stop ruminating over this
My unfair, unstoppable, crazy attraction,
Instigating the Lord into rebuking me, finally,
Needing to subject me to my long awaited fate:
Divine punishment
Love is still a concept I have trouble wrapping my head around
Ideally, I would like to develop a tolerance for your poison
Kills me with words that sets my body aflame
Ecstatic euphoria fills me when I hear you say my name
Time in its measured consistence is still so short, so unsure
Hunger like this should not make my innermost self feel so empty
I will risk begging God for the gift of
Silent contentment
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Scratches On My Gravestone
PoetryA collection of poems written by little ol' me, created to be discovered, but not remembered.
