Mission failed (Choi Seung-hyun fanfic)

~ Love beyond reason ~

He kissed me everywhere, from my lips to the neck, the shoulders and back. I gasped under his soft, tingly breath. “Seung-hyun.” I moaned. He intertwined his fingers with mine and pulled my hand over my head. “What…What are you doing?” I asked, my voice shaking from excitement. He stopped and looked deep into my eyes. I could see in his eyes that he was deeply hurt, he seemed angry and devastated at the same time. “I’m showing you how much I love you.” He whispered slowly and kissed me again. His voice cracked on half. It was like he was holding back his tears. Did my words really hurt him that much? Does he really love me? “Then why are you leaving me?” I moaned while he continued kissing my neck and chest, slowly taking off my straps and pulling my shirt all the way to my hips. My mind was a mess. I couldn’t think straight, I was on the edge to even forget what we were fighting about. But I needed an answer. I slowly pushed him away, trying to get up but I couldn’t feel my anything. I stayed lying on the grass with my shirt pulled down huffing and gasping rapidly. “It’s complicated.” was all he said. I waited a minute, looking up at the sky, to see if he’s going to add something more but he didn’t. I felt my anger from before coming back. I pulled myself up quickly pulling my shirt back on too and gave him my best glare. “That’s not good enough. If you love me as you say you do then you owe me real answers. Now tell me what’s going on!” I demanded a straight answer, as I believed I deserve. He sighed deeply. “Fine, you’re right. I’ll tell you. Since well, I didn’t kill…” he stopped here. I noticed he couldn’t complete the sentence but I told him to continue. “Since I didn’t complete my mission they will probably assume I failed. Which means they believe me dead.” He stopped again, sighing. “And that’s a bad thing?” I asked confused, because from my point of view if they don’t know he’s alive he doesn’t have to go back never again. And honestly I couldn’t think of a better thing than that. But he just nodded. “It’s a bad thing because they’ll assume you still live. They can’t take a chance thinking that I completed my mission before something happened, which means they’re going to send another assassin, or even two of them to make sure the mission is complete.” He looked really worried, his face darkened on that very thought. I gasped, I didn't even think of the consequences of our actions and now that they came to light I was scared. And honestly I didn’t understand them at all. “You mean someone else could come to kill me? But why? I’m just an ordinary high school girl.” I said, my voice shaking with fear. The sole thought that I may die soon was terrifying. I was more scared now than at the moment when Seung-hyun pointed his gun at me. “I’m not sure. The mission came from highly above in the organization, and usually on those missions we don’t get much information. Just who we need to kill and their whereabouts.” His expression changed from dark to worried and back in seconds. Like he was trying to figure out a strategy to keep me alive but didn’t know how. “But then if you go back and tell them I’m dead they will believe you?” I asked with hope. He nodded again and I felt a glimmer of relief. ”Yes, but that also means I won’t be able to come back.” The relief disappeared and my heart sank into despair. “No!” I protested, anything but that! That was the worst idea so far, it meant that he’d have to go back to that life of killing and serving and I believed him to be better than that. I didn’t want that life for him anymore. He sighed again. “That is the easiest way, you know?” he said though it was obvious he hated the idea too. But I refused to believe that was our only way out of this mess. I’d rather die than be without him. I started shaking out of fear of never seeing him again. That cannot happen. What am I going to do? He patted my head. “There is another alternative, but it’s pretty much pointless.” He said cupping my face and kissing the tip of my head. I looked at him with hope. His face stiffened and he looked away. “I go back, find who wants to kill you and get rid of them.” He didn’t look at me while saying that. I knew exactly what he meant by ‘get rid’; it meant he’d have to kill a person for me. And I did not want to put him in that position. I wanted to change him for better, and letting him murder someone for me was far from that. And anyway I wouldn’t be able to live with myself afterwards. “No, that’s absolutely out of question. You’re not killing anyone for my sake.” I said. I thought about what was best for both of us and I came up with an idea. “Listen, I don’t want that life for you anymore. You can be so much more than to serve an organization who demands you to kill. I say, we go back and find out who wants to kill me and why. If we know the reason maybe we can change something! Maybe they confused me for someone else, someone important to them. We can clear these things.” I said with hope. He thought about it. “I don’t know, even if I succeed, they wouldn’t let me come back.” He said nervously, he wasn't very fond of the idea. “That’s why I’d come with you!” I said. His eyes widened with horror. “No way, if they find out you know about the organization they’d kill us both without a second thought! You’re not going.” He said. I looked at him, now for the first time I realized he was endangered too, that he could also get killed. And that scared me way more than losing my own life. I protested, saying we could take care of each other, but he was highly against it. I pleaded him to take me with him, scared that if he goes alone I’d never see him again. “But you won’t be safe on your own!” I yelled. His eyes softened and he exhaled. “Annabelle, I have to go back to do whatever is necessary to keep you safe. But by doing this I’m going against the whole organization. And I don’t stand much chance against them. Anyway it doesn’t matter what happens to me.” My eyes filled with tears once again. I shook my head. “How can you say that? It matters to me!” I screamed throwing myself in his embrace. He was shocked. He looked down at me for a brief second and then kissed the tip of my head. “I know it does.” he whispered in my ear hugging me as tight as he could. We laid on the grass near each other. My head was spinning from all the thoughts and strategies I tried to come up with in our advantage. After a while my head started to hurt and I closed my eyes, exhausted and weak from everything. Only a minute later I fell asleep in his embrace.
When I woke up I couldn’t feel his warmth anymore. I opened my eyes just to find he was already gone. “Seung-hyun?” I called out to him with worry, thinking maybe he went for a stroll or something nearby. “Seung-hyun?!” I called out again but louder, hoping he didn’t hear me the first time. “SEUNG-HYUN?!?!” I screamed as laud as I could this time but I was getting no answer. Deep down I knew he was already on his way back to Korea. I sat on the grass and started crying. He really left, he left without me. What was I supposed to do now? The sole thought that he might never come back made my chest hurt like hell. And I was too afraid to even think about the worst that could happen. I didn’t go home until my eyes dried out. When I came home I went straight into my room and opened my closet taking out his black helmet and squeezing it to my chest. I took the note he wrote to me the day before and read it again and again. I had the best breakfast in my life that day. To think that it was only yesterday and now he was gone. Why did I have to fall in love so damn fast? I laid on my bed and cried more, I cried until my eyes dried out and I was just lying in my bed with an empty look.
The next two weeks passed in a blur. I was always at home. My friends tried to call me but I didn’t bother to answer the cell. After a while they even started to call my family members to ask if I was ok but I refused to talk to anyone. My family started worrying about me, thinking maybe something bad happened between me and my friends but I couldn’t really tell them I was seeing a 26 year old Asian who left to Korea to keep me safe from possible assassins, so I kept them thinking that I’m like this because of my friends. But another week passed and my mother decided it’s time to either talk to her or talk to my friends and straighten things up. She told me I should get out of my room already and make peace with them. So she called my two best friends Katja and Jasmina who came to my house to get me and we went into the city for a walk. I didn’t talk about my problem with Seung-hyun with them because I didn’t think they would understand. They didn’t push it either. Instead we talked about other things and they even made me smile a little. Everything was okay for a while, but suddenly I felt like someone was watching me and a shiver ran up my whole body. I turned all around me to look for someone suspicious but I couldn’t find anyone. And besides, the street we were walking in was filled with people so I couldn’t really tell if someone was watching me or not. Maybe I was just paranoid but the feeling of someone staring at me didn’t go away. After a while the two of them decided we could go to the usual place we like to hang out at, it’s behind a forecastle on a mountain where you can see the centre of the city from above. It’s a very beautiful and calming place, but dark and no one ever passes through there. In any other occasion I’d be delighted to go up there because I loved it there but tonight something was telling me not to go. I tried to tell them that I didn’t feel safe up there but they didn’t listen to me and they dragged me up with them, not like I would let them go alone anyway. I was just hoping they’d take my words more seriously but they didn’t. They even told me I was paranoid. Once we were up there I got so scared that something might happen to them that I didn’t even see the strange man approaching us until it was too late. He was very young, around eighteen and… Asian. I felt a cold breeze all the way to my bones, I got so scared I started to beg the two of them to leave now but they noticed him too and were too excited to meet a teenage Asian. Especially since they were crazed K-pop fans and meeting an Asian in our small town was very rare, and to all of that he was very handsome. “Hi!” he said and smiled cutely as he approached us. I was now terrified, looking left and right in search of an escape route that could quickly led us back into a crowded place. ‘Please don’t touch my friends’ I begged in myself a millions of times looking at his wide smile and thinking how this was it, this was the end. “I think I’ve lost my way, can you help me?” he asked taking out a map and opening it in front of us. My friends blushed and immediately took the map to show him a way; a way he probably didn’t even need. “Sure, where do you need to go?” Jasmina asked him. He looked at the map and asked for directions to a famous restaurant here in the city. Please, what a cliché! He couldn’t think of anything better than a restaurant? And anyway who comes to a place where there’s no people at all to ask for directions when just a few minutes from here there’s a street full of people? He was still smiling as they showed him the way on the map. He was focusing a lot on their words and the map route, not even giving me, who was standing behind the girls, a glimpse. I was starting to calm down a little thinking I overreacted and he’s just a normal tourist when he sent me a creepy look with an even creepier smile; one of those smiles that said ‘I found you!’ and my blood froze. I reacted by my instinct. I pushed the girls from the way and jumped at him and we fell on the ground. I screamed to Katja and Jasmina to run but the two of them stood there in shock with the map in their hands. The Asian pulled my hair and got up. He took out a gun and pointed it at my friends. “Don’t you dare move a finger!” he yelled. I could see their expression turning from confused to terrified. He pushed me towards them and told me to get up. I placed myself in front of them trying to cover them with my body. Hoping that at least the two of them can get out of here alive. “Please, let them go. They don’t know anything, you don’t have to kill them too.” I begged the man who was now pointing his gun at me. He just gave me another creepy smirk. “Sorry love, they saw my face.” He said. I twitched on his words and the nickname he gave me. I was disgusted by him, not nearly as calm and brave as I was when Seung-hyun was pointing his gun at me. No this guy was different, I could see in his eyes that he enjoyed this, like he was born to kill. I closed my eyes losing all hope when I heard a shot. Katja and Jasmina screamed at once. I was waiting for a sharp pain or at least any kind of pain to develop through my body but when it didn’t I opened my eyes with surprise realising I was still standing. And Katja and Jasmina were still behind me, both of them horrified but fine too. I looked at the man that only a few seconds ago was standing in front of me ready to kill me. He was now on the floor in his own pool of blood with a gun hole in his back. Right where his heart is. I looked around me and on the top roof of the forecastle was standing Seung-hyun. He held a gun in his hand and his face was emotionless. In a moment I understood what happened and what scared me most was that my friends witnessed everything. I turned to them and saw their scared faces, looking at the strange man on the top roof. They were too scared to even cry. I tried to do or say something that would console them but in that moment I heard someone shouting my name. I automatically turned to Seung-hyun who pointed a gun at a bush that was close to us. I heard two shots before something sharp hit my shoulder and I rolled down on the rocky road hitting my head on a stone in the process. My vision became blurry. I heard Seung-hyun calling out my name in the distance, it seemed like an echo. I felt sharp pain spreading through my right shoulder, it was unbearable yet not strong enough to leave me unconscious. I was trying to focus on the dark blue sky with stars but black dots filled my vision, I barely kept my eyes open. Then someone pulled me in an embrace.