Mission failed (Choi Seung-hyun fanfic)

~ Lesson learned: don't get shot! ~

I heard Seung-hyun’s distant voice telling me to stay focus, to keep my eyes open. But I was in so much pain that I wanted to fall sleep, and I was getting cold. The cold spread through my shoulder and all over my body. I started shaking from it and the pain became even more unbearable. The last thing I heard was Seung-hyun ordering the girls to call an ambulance and then he picked me up. The movement made my pain even worse, it was now throbbing throughout my body. When I couldn’t take it anymore I closed my eyes telling myself I’d sleep just for a minute.

When I opened my eyes I found myself in a hospital bed. The smell of disinfection filled my nose and I frowned. I hated hospitals, they smelled like disinfection and old people and the food here was terrible! I couldn’t last here a week without going crazy. A few minutes after I woke up the doctor came to see me, he told me I was shot and in a coma for three days. Honestly I felt like I barely slept five minutes and could use some more sleep. He told me I was regularly getting painkillers for my injury and that could’ve also made my rest last longer than expected. I listened carefully to everything he said. When finally he was done I was ready to start asking questions. I started with ‘How my friends are and what happened to them?’ but he just smiled and told me my family was outside and wanted to see me and talk to me. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see them. How the hell am I going to explain them how I got shot? Anyways he went out and let them in. They all came in together, all of them with different expressions. My sister and father seemed mostly concerned, while my little brother seemed very much confused. The older brother seemed pretty much eager to hear the story of how his little sister got shot. Who worried me most was my mom, who had a stern and angry expression; like she came to see a prisoner, not a patient. First they all asked me if I was ok and if anything hurt me. They didn’t attack me with questions immediately but I knew they wouldn’t leave this room without any answers, especially my mom. After I reassured them I was feeling ok and rested, which was only half true, my mom asked everyone to step outside for a little. Here my heart sank and I knew what was coming next. I watched the other leaving the room hoping at least one of them would stay. When they were out my mother pulled up a chair from the corner and sat beside my bed. “Annabelle, who shot you?” she went straight to the point. Honestly I didn’t think she’d get to that point so soon, I was expecting a what happened, what did you get yourself into, how did this happen but who shoot me? Honestly I didn’t know myself. I knew it wasn’t Seung-hyun, he wouldn’t! But I didn’t see if there was anyone else there. I only remembered I heard two shots all most at the same time. And one of them was apparently aimed at me. “Mom, are Katja and Jasmina ok?” I ignored her question and asked what worried me most at the moment. Well actually what worried me most was Seung-hyun but I certainly couldn’t ask her about him. So I tried to focus on Katja and Jasmina. What if one of them was the other target? I didn’t think of that until now, how could I have forgotten that? I felt my chest squeeze right before my mom sighed with an even angrier expression. “They are fine, they are waiting outside the room, and they want to see you too. They were just very scared for the past few days, not only for your life but also for many other things. They had no idea what happened or why and the police interrogating them day after day didn’t help either.” I nodded feeling guilty and ashamed for the two of them, but happy that they weren't hurt. How could I have let this happen to them? They’re never going to forgive me. “Speak to me Annabelle, what happened?” she demanded to know. I lowered my face. “I don’t want to talk about it.” I told her. Honestly it wasn’t even that I didn’t want to talk, which I didn’t especially with her, but I also wasn’t sure what happened. I didn’t see who shot me and in the end I passed out. I wanted to see the girls and talk to them, but I knew my mother wouldn’t let me go so easily. On my surprise she got up from her seat near my bed with a firm expression and walked out of the room. At the doors she turned to me and said: “Fine, if you won’t talk to me maybe you’ll talk to the police.” I mouthed to say something but she was already out. I looked out the window with worry. What am I going to say to the police? I need to speak to the girls first. I was in luck because the two of them were the next ones who entered my room. My face brightened as they ran towards me and hugged me. My shoulder hurt but I endured the pain happily because I was scared they hated me, but instead they hugged me and kissed my cheeks like we didn’t see each other in ages. I smiled at them and told them to sit down. They too asked me if I was in pain or if I needed something but after I reassured them I was ok they let me talk. “Listen girls, I know you got really scared and I put you through a lot these past few days. I’m very sorry and I hope you can forgive me.” I knew the apology was in order before anything else. They both sighed looking down and then back at me. I just realised now how tired and beaten up they looked. Like they didn’t sleep at all for days. “Everything’s fine now Annabelle. We’re glad you’re ok. We really thought you were going to die.” Katja said. I nodded and my face turned serious. Finally all the question I was supressing about Seung-hyun started to fill my mind and I couldn’t wait any longer. I needed to know if he was ok. I knew I wouldn’t be able to see him until I was released out of the hospital because he couldn’t be seen in a crowded place like this. I decided the first place I’d look for him once I’m released was his apartment. “Listen girls, I need to ask you some questions. Can you please be honest with me?” I asked them. They both nodded. “The man, who was standing on the castle. Did he say anything to you? I remember he told you to call an ambulance. Did he say anything more?” I asked. Maybe he told them something that could give me a clue where to find him. The two of them looked at each other with worry. I understood immediately that they knew something, and I had to know what. But the way they looked at each other made me think they didn't have god news. “Annabelle, he…he tended to your wound until the ambulance came and then he ran away. The police is looking for him.” Katja said. “The police? Why?” I asked with worry, my heart started to pound like crazy. Everything was a complete mess and I felt helpless. “Well, he shot you didn’t he?” Jasmina said. “What?” I asked looking at her with anger. “Of course he didn’t! You just said, he tended to my wound!” I realised my voice was getting high so I cleared my throat. “I’m sorry. What I’m trying to say is that he wasn’t the one who shot me. It was someone else, I’m sure of it. I just need to know if you saw anyone else there.” I said trying to calm my breathing. They both shook their heads. “Annabelle, we… there was no one there except for him. And anyway who is he why are you protecting him?” Katja asked confused. I swear my blood started to boil. “Did you… did you tell the police this too? Did you tell them he shot me?” I said through my teeth. “Yes, we did!” Katja said. All the patience and concern she showed a minute ago was gone and her face became indifferent. “Are you out of your mind?” I snapped at her, my voice was getting high again but I couldn’t control it. My mind was panicking for Seung-hyun’s sake. My heart racing more and more each second. If the police is after him, he’ll never be able to live in peace here. I felt tears in the corners of my eyes. Katja stood up from the chair pushing it on the floor in the process. “You know what? If you had told us what the hell was going on with you back then maybe we wouldn’t be so clueless about who he is and what to say about him. In the end we said the truth. He was the only one there, he had a gun. You saw him shoot that other guy, he can point a gun alright! And then he even ran away before the ambulance came! So yeah, we think he shot you and that’s exactly what we said to the police! Everything else you can blame on yourself!” she finished with that and stormed out of the room. I was perplexed. I looked at the doors she swung with force after leaving and I couldn’t believe it. She was right. The police was after Seung-hyun and it was my fault. Once the first tear fell from my eyes they didn’t stop falling. Jasmina apologized to me and went after Katja. I laid back on the bed and looked out of the window with my eyes blurred by tears. It’s all my fault. He’s all alone now and I can’t even get up from this stupid bed and look for him. The thought crossed my mind that he might get caught before I get released and I wouldn’t see him again. I pushed my head deeper into the pillow covering half of my crying face with it. I couldn’t stand that thought. Then I heard the doors opening again. I assumed it was my mom. “Leave, I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.” I said coldheartedly. A man cleared his throat and my head spun over to look who it is. Two unfamiliar faces were looking at me with pity. Police, I assumed. After all they’re the only ones who think I’m the victim here, hence the pitiful expression. “Miss, we need to talk to you about what happened.” The taller one said. I turned my face to the window again. “He didn’t shoot me. There was someone else there.” I said. The two police man came closer to my bed. “Can you tell us who they were?” he asked. I shook my head in response. It’s better if I pretend I didn’t know them. “Your friends said in their report that one of them tended to your wound. Can you explain why he would do that miss?” he asked. He seemed impatient, like he knew I was lying. “It’s Annabelle. And no, I don’t know why.” I lied again. The questioning continued for another ten minutes. They asked me all that I remembered and if I had seen any of those men ever before in my life. I denied that too, saying I never saw them before; which was actually half true, because I knew only Seung-hyun. They left my room clearly unsatisfied with my answers that didn’t match the story of Katja and Jasmina. They knew I was lying and covering things up. As a matter of fact the taller one told me before leaving that if I was covering things up they would find out sooner or later. I just shrugged to him pretending to be clueless about what he was talking about and continued looking out the window. After they left I told the nurse that came to check up on me to not let anyone in my room because I wanted to be alone. She nodded and left, and for the rest of the day no one bothered me anymore. I didn’t stop thinking about Seung-hyun since the two police man left. Wondering where he might be and if he was even all right. My chest was hurting like crazy and every now and then I’d cry hoping I can see him again. When night fell another nurse came to give me a painkiller and a tranquillizer. I refused both of them. Saying I felt fine and that I didn’t want them. She consulted with the doctor who said I was an adult and could decide for myself. Still, the nurse seemed worried so she told me she was here all night and if I change my mind I should just call her. I thanked her and they left me alone. I knew I wouldn’t sleep tonight, I couldn’t sleep not knowing where Seung-hyun is and if he is all right. After midnight my shoulder started to hurt a little, at first I could ignore the pain, I was focused on the stars out of the window, hoping to see Seung-hyun’s face in them. But as time passed by my shoulder started hurting more and more. And after about 2 a.m. I started breathing harder and sweating because of the pain. I couldn’t focus on anything anymore except for the burning sensation spreading through my shoulder. After a while my head started hurting too, I even got tempted to call the nurse a few times but I didn’t. Then after half an hour of hard breathing and whining silently in pain the nurse entered my room. Seeing me in my state she gasped. “I’ll bring the painkillers and tranquilizers right away.” She said and turned to go fetch the medicine. “No.” I protested. My heart was pacing again and I barely talked from the pain but I did not want the medicine. “But you’re in pain!” she said with worry. She ran to me and tried to make me as comfortable as she could but even the slightest move made my pain bigger and I winced. She immediately backed away. “You have to.” She said. “No, I don’t. The doctor said I can choose for myself. So I choose not to take the medicine. Just leave me alone.” I said coldly and turned my face away. I was a little ashamed of myself. This woman just tried to help and I was being rude. But my heart was hurting so much that any other form of pain was welcomed right now. I just needed a distraction from my thoughts. She shook her head in disapproval and left the room. I wasn’t sure if she was going to leave me alone or come back and force the painkillers on me. I shut my eyes just for a little hoping I could endure the pain more easily like that. It didn’t really help. After five minutes I heard the doors again but I didn’t open my eyes. I assumed it was the nurse with the medicine. “I said I didn’t need the painkillers.” I told her. She didn’t answer, she silently approached the bed and stopped there. I got curious on what she was doing so I opened my eyes and looked at her. On my surprise it wasn’t the nurse.