The Lady Or the Beauty

Unsettling seas

Erik was teaching me the American language. Starting with the alphabet. It so different from the french language. It wasn't easy but I guess I've got the hang of it. We were reading english literature, 'The Little Mermaid.' It was about a mermaid who saved a human and ended up falling in love. I imagined myself as the mermaid and saving Erik as he saved me countless times.

Suddenly when Ariel was about to sell her voice, meaning we were reading that part, I suddenly felt the urge to.... I raced to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet. I don't know how long I was there. But Erik came up behind me and knelt down. Pulling my hair out of the way and rubbing my back. When I stopped puking I sat down shaking as Erik wiped my mouth with a rag.

"Christine....maybe we should let you rest for awhile."

"Erik no I'm alright." As I said that I suddenly felt better and I slowly stood up. Cleaning up my mess I washed my face and hands before going to sit back down. Erik helped and just looked at me curiously. I was in a pickle too. As to why I was acting like this. I don't know but I couldn't let a good feeling go to waste.

The next few days were odd too. One minute I was hungry and the next, after I consumed even the tiniest amount of food, I either get nauseous or threw up. Sometimes both. I was eating more and more too. Like a pig and it's troughful of food. I tried so hard to not eat so much at to maybe that's why I kept getting sick. But That didn't help.

I was very moody as well. One minute I'm so happy and the next I'm either sad, angery, stressed, or a mix of that plus a whole much more. One day I blew up in Erik's face in anger.

"Get off my back Erik!"

"Christine I'm just trying to help you!"

"I don't need any help you mon-" I gasped and covered my mouth. I jumpped from the bed and went to Erik kneeling at his feet. "Oh Erik please forgive me! For I do not know what I am speaking! I do not think your a monster. I will always prove to you that you are an angel! For you are! I am unworthy to be in the same room as you!" I cried at his feet more emotional as ever. I felt him picking me up and carrying me to the bed and sitting along beside me. Myself laid in his lap.

"Shhh, Christine. I know you don't mean to say such things or eat as much, or do anything that goes against your personality completely." He stroked my hair and rubbed my back. "Don't worry love. This trip won't be much longer. It's just seasickness, don't worry it's only one more week on this God forsaken boat."

"Please don't say such things like that."

"Of course I am sorry." I smiled and let him kiss me. But just my head since I don't trust him kissing my lips in case...well yeah.

One more week...... seasickness.... No. It had to be more... Well maybe I was overthinking things. My head also hurt alot and my judgement was cloudy. So I decided not to question it and let sleep overtake me.