The Lady Or the Beauty

Separation

Christine POV

I scream and scream Erik's name over and over. All I hear is the shrieking of people on the boat and in the water. I cry. This had to be a nightmare. It is so cold and my tears freeze to my face. Frost is settling on me. I want to end it all. Then I see another ship in the distance. It is the Carpathia. I'm too scared to be happy. When the ship reaches our lifeboat, they help us onto the ship. I keep trying to tell them about Erik and how they should rescue him, but they don't listen. I curl up in a ball and cry.

We reach America in a few days. I am exausted and distraught. I learn from a newsie that our lifeboat was the only one with surivivors. I couldn't think. My heart was broken. Erik. I look at my wedding ring.

"Erik please. PLEASE! Don't be dead," I am sobbing, half screaming out. I bite my lip. What am I suppose to do? I have no money. I have no place to stay and I can only speak a little English.

I find a park bench where I am.  The place is bustling. Never sleeping. I curl up on the bench and try to fall asleep. I can't sleep without Erik. I try and find out if there are anymore suriviors from a passsing by newspaper boy. There is no one else. Then Erik did not survive. I am destroyed. I couldn't live without him. I can't live without him. I want to die. I find a broken beer bottle on the ground and I take a sharp sliver of glass from it. All I see is blood. My blood. My arms are cut up and I smile at the feeling of physical pain. I'll be with you soon Erik I think I start cutting deeper and deeper, waiting for that fatal cut. I collapse to the ground. I feel very faint....

Yes...let me bleed to death I think with a smile. I passout. What I didn't know was that someone had picked me up and was carrying me to they're home. All I knew was that soon Erik and I would be soon reunited in death.