Her || Bts 8th Member

Something's wrong

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At last, after long months working, having concerts, writing and producing songs. The group has a month break from their work and the entertainment world. Most of the boys have spent their break out of the country with their friends and the others are with their family. While Soomin on the other hand was still at their dorm trying to figure out things.

She can't spend her time with her parents because they're out of the country for some business things. And she decided to stay in the dorm while the others were having fun. She knows something was wrong about her these few months. Even though she laughed with the members and had fun with them, she still can't be happy for a long time. Everything she does seems to bother her and thinking if it is enough or not. She feels that even though she had everything and could do anything it was not enough.

That everything around her seems to have an improvement but she can't.

Every night and when she's in the shower she will cry until there's no tear left to roll down. How her throat and chest hurt when she was trying to not let a sound out to be heard. That she feels empty without any reason and she will just cry it out. Every member noticed how their Maknae looked down those months.

Everyone was trying to make her feel better and even asked her if she was fine. But then Soomin will smile and nod every time they ask her. She let out a sigh once again. Laying down on her bed tears rolling down from her eyes to her cheeks. Although she kept on not talking, the boys knew her, especially Yoongi.

Yoongi went out for a moment to go to the company building to get something. Or that's what Soomin thought so. He knew she was going to be like this when he got out of the dorm. He listened as she cried inside of her room.

Although it hurt him seeing Soomin like that and wanted to hug her and comfort her. He wanted to let her cry so maybe it will make her feel a bit better. He decided to get in when he noticed the sobs were replaced by sniffs. He opens the door revealing Soomin laying down on her bed with swollen and bloodshot eyes. Her face was red and dried tears were covering her cheeks.

She turned around, wiping her face with the sleeves of her hoodie. Yoongi sighed and sat beside her holding her shoulders and turned Soomin around to face him. She looked down still sniffing and embarrassed to look at him. She doesn't want him to know that she was like this. Yoongi pulled her into his arms, embracing her like she was too flagile to be held.

He gently embraced her like he was afraid to break her into pieces. Even though she wanted to cry on his shoulders she couldn't. Her tears dried out a minute ago and they can't roll down to her cheeks anymore.

"Are you okay?" Yoongi asked her as she nodded as an answer. Yoongi sighed at this answer again. The same motions she gave them, every minute they asked her if she was okay. She will only nod and smile and that answer always breaks their heart.

They know that she was not okay and she was not her since the mistake she made at the concert last few months. When she fell down and her voice cracked at the concert. That trended at twitter and fans wished and asked if she was okay. But the wishes seem not to catch her attention and it focused on the insults and bad words that the anti-fans said to her.

"I'm oka–" She said, pushing Yoongi from you but then he pulled her back a bit harshly for her liking.

"No you are not," Yoongi started with his soft voice.  "Everyone makes and already made one in their life. Every mistake makes us grow, Soomin. It's okay that you made a mistake at our concert, even if you keep on making mistakes it will be fine. I know that stupid mistake you made was making you like this right now. Those dumbasses who make hate comments?! Fuck them! Don't listen to the shits they mindlessly speak, because if there's someone who's unwowthy of what you have. It's them."

"Everyone is hurting because you're hurt. Don't ever think that we're not thinking and caring of you. Because even if you fall every minute I'll always catch you, even the other members. I don't want you to get hurt even more and don't ever keep it to yourself." Yoongi pulled back to cup your face trying to erase the marks of your tears on your face.

"I thought we promised that we will be each other's comfort buddies." Yoongi pouted, making her giggle because of his cuteness.

Her laugh was genuine. Yoongi knows that. At least that he already talked and poured his words out after keeping it for months. He is embarrassed to say it but now he already did. Because behind that 'i don't give a fuck' image, it was the softball Yoongi who is caring for everyone. She knows that his words are true and it made her a bit better but knowing that the guys are always beside her. She can surpass this test and be happy with them again.

After a long talk with Yoongi, he pulled her out of her room and made her dinner. The two of them went out to buy ice cream and get almost caught by a cashier fan. It's not they're hiding and didn't want to be seen but Soomin's eyes are still swollen and didn't want them to see it. After Yoongi's comfort words he was back to himself and started laughing about her swollen eyes making her frown and pout. It made Yoongi laugh even harder and pulled her in his arms planting a kiss on her crown.

She was grateful that she met them, the boys. Even though they are not siblings by blood, the eight of them are siblings by heart. And Soomin's grateful to have them beside her.

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*Edited: 12/10/21

Just a bit of drama for you

**pjbangtan from the future;

should I put trigger warning for the whole book? although it has a bit of context..all of those wereee so emotional. you guys what do you think?

-pjbangtan